Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Love stories; Mate selection -- Fiction
Roger’s journey was long and various. He went to the West Indies and
to South America, whence, taking a ship at one of the eastern ports,
he sailed round the Horn and paid a visit to Mexico. He journeyed
thence to California, and returned home across the Isthmus, stopping
awhile on his upward course at various Southern cities. It was in
some degree a sentimental journey. Roger was a practical man; as he
went he gathered facts and noted manners and customs; but the muse of
observation for him was the little girl at home, the ripening
companion of his own ripe years. It was for her sake that he
collected impressions and laid up treasure. He had determined that
she should be a lovely woman and a perfect wife; but to be worthy of
such a woman as his fancy foreshadowed, he himself had much to learn.
To be a good husband, one must first be a wise man; to educate her,
he should first educate himself. He would make it possible that
daily contact with him should be a liberal education, and that his
simple society should be a benefit. For this purpose he should be a
fountain of knowledge, a compendium of experience. He travelled in a
spirit of solemn attention, like some grim devotee of a former age
making a pilgrimage for the welfare of one he loved. He kept with
great labor a copious diary, which he meant to read aloud on the
winter nights of coming years. His diary was directly addressed to
Nora, she being implied throughout as reader or auditor. He thought
at moments of his vow to Isabel Morton, and asked himself what had
become of the passion of that hour. It had betaken itself to the
common limbo of our dead passions. He rejoiced to know that she was
well and happy; he meant to write to her again on his return and tell
her that he himself was as happy as she could wish to see him. He
mused ever and anon on the nature of his affection for Nora, and
wondered what earthly name he could call it by. Assuredly he was not
in love with her: you could not fall in love with a child. But if he
had not a lover’s love, he had at least a lover’s jealousy; it would
have made him miserable to believe his scheme might miscarry. It
would fail, he fondly assured himself, by no fault of hers. He was
sure of her future; in that last interview at school he had guessed
the answer to the riddle of her formless girlhood. If he could only
be as sure of his own constancy as of hers! On this point poor Roger
might fairly have let his conscience rest; but to test his
resolution, he deliberately courted temptation, and on a dozen
occasions allowed present loveliness to measure itself with absent
promise. At the risk of a large expenditure of blushes, he bravely
incurred the blandishments of various charming persons of the South.
They failed signally, in every case but one, to quicken his pulses.
He studied these gracious persons, he noted their gifts and graces,
so that he might know the range of the feminine charm. Of the utmost
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