“We thought we hoped that perhaps, if you adopted our name, it might
prevent unpleasantness. Such things are done, you know, and then, too,
we might make some arrangement about your grandfather's money, a part
of which I feel is now yours by right. Even now the change would show
people the truth, would save many disagreeables.”
During this speech Erica's face had been a study; an angry glow of color
rushed to her cheeks, her eyes flashed dangerously. She was a young
girl, but there was a good deal of the lion about her at that minute,
and her aunt trembled listening perforce to the indignant outburst.
“What truth would it show?” she cried. “I don't believe there is such
a thing as truth among all these wretched shams! I will never change
my name to escape from prejudice and bigotry, or to win a share in my
grandfather's property! What! Give up my father's name to gain the money
which might have kept him from pain and ruin and semi-starvation? Take
the money that might have brought comfort to my mother that might have
kept me with her to the end. I couldn't take it. I would rather die
than touch one penny of it. It is too late now. If you thought I would
consent if that is the reason you asked me here, I can go at once. I
would not willingly have brought shame upon you, but neither will I
dishonor myself nor insult my father by changing my name. Why, to do so
would be to proclaim that I judged him as those Pharisees did tonight.
The hypocrites! Which of them can show one grain of love for the race,
to set against my father's life of absolute devotion? They sit over
their champagne and slander atheists, and then have the face to call
themselves Christians.”
“My dear!” said Mrs. Fane-Smith, nervously. “Our only wish is to do what
is best for you; but you are too tired and excited to discuss this now.
I will wish you good night.”
“I never wish to discuss it again, thank you,” said Erica, submitting to
a particularly warm embrace.
Mrs. Fane-Smith was right in one way. Erica was intensely excited. When
people have been riding rough-shod over one's heart, one is apt to be
excited, and Luke Raeburn's daughter had inherited that burning sense
of indignation which was so strongly marked a characteristic in Raeburn
himself. Violins can be more sweet and delicate in tone than any other
instrument, but they can also wail with greater pathos, and produce a
more fearful storm of passion.
Declining any assistance from Gemma, Erica locked her door, caught
up some sheets of foolscap, snatched up her pen, and began to write
rapidly. She knew well enough that she ought not to have written. But
when the heart is hot with indignation, when the brain produces scathing
sentences, when the subject seems to have taken possession of the whole
being, to deny its utterance is quite the hardest thing in the world.
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