Mrs. Raeburn, delicate and invalided as she was, had nevertheless a
great deal of influence, though perhaps neither Raeburn, nor Erica, nor
warm-hearted Tom Craigie understood how much she did for them all. She
was so unassuming, so little given to unnecessary speech, so reticent,
that her life made very little show, while it had become so entirely a
matter of course that every one should bring his private troubles to
her that it would have seemed extraordinary not to meet with exactly
the sympathy and counsel needed. Today, however, even Mrs. Raeburn was
almost too despondent to cheer the others. It comforted Erica to talk
to her, but she could not help feeling very miserable as she saw the
anxiety and sadness in her mother's face.
“What more can we do, mother?” she questioned. “I can't think of a
single thing we can give up.”
“I really don't know, dear,” said her mother with a sigh. “We have
nothing but the absolute necessaries of life now, except indeed your
education at the High School, and that is a very trifling expense, and
one which cannot be interfered with.”
Erica was easily depressed, like most high-spirited persons; but she was
not used to seeing either her father or her mother despondent, and the
mere strangeness kept her from going down to the very deepest depths.
She had the feeling that at least one of them must try to keep up. Yet,
do what she would, that evening was one of the saddest and dreariest she
had ever spent. All the excitement of contest was over, and a sort of
dead weight of gloom seemed to oppress them. Raeburn was absolutely
silent. From the first Erica had never heard him complain, but his
anger, and afterward his intense depression, spoke volumes. Even Tom,
her friend and play fellow, seemed changed this evening, grown somehow
from a boy to a man; for there was a sternness about him which she had
never seen before, and which made the days of their childhood seem far
away. And yet it was not so very long ago that she and Tom had been the
most light-hearted and careless beings in the world, and had imagined
the chief interest of life to consist in tending dormice, and tame rats,
and silk worms! She wondered whether they could ever feel free again,
whether they could ever enjoy their long Saturday afternoon rambles, or
whether this weight of care would always be upon them.
With a very heavy heart she prepared her lessons for the next day,
finding it hard to take much interest in Magna Charta and legal
enactments in the time of King John, when the legal enactments of today
were so much more mind-engrossing. Tom was sitting opposite to her,
writing letters for Raeburn. Once, notwithstanding his grave looks, she
hazarded a question. “Tom,” she said, shutting up her 'History of the
English People,' “Tom, what do you think will happen?”
Tom looked across at her with angry yet sorrowful eyes.
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