Charles Osmond was human, and almost inevitably a sort of reaction
began in his mind the instant he was alone. He had lost one of his best
friends, he knew as well as possible that they could never be on
the same footing as before. He had, moreover, lost in him a valuable
co-worker. Then, too, it was true enough that his defense of Raeburn was
bringing him into great disfavor with the religious world, and he was a
sensitive and naturally a proud man, who found blame, and reproach,
and contemptuous disapproval very hard to bear. Years of hard fighting,
years of patient imitation of Christ had wonderfully ennobled him, but
he had not yet attained to the sublime humility which, being free from
all thought of self, cares nothing, scarcely even pauses to think of
the world's judgment, too absorbed in the work of the Highest to have
leisure for thought of the lowest, too full of love for the race to have
love to spare for self. To this ideal he was struggling, but he had not
yet reached it, and the thought of his own reputation, his own feelings
would creep in. He was not a selfishly ambitious man, but every one who
is conscious of ability, every one who feels within him energies lying
fallow for want of opportunity, must be ambitious for a larger sphere of
work. Just as he was beginning to dare to allow himself the hope of some
change in his work, some wider field, just as he was growing sure enough
of himself to dare to accept any greater work which might have been
offered to him, he must, by bringing himself into evil repute, lose
every chance of preferment. And for what? For attempting to obtain a
just judgment for the enemy of his faith; for holding out a brotherly
hand to a man who might very probably not care to take it; for
consorting with those who would at best regard him as an amiable
fanatic. Was this worth all it would cost? Could the exceedingly
problematical gain make up for the absolutely certain loss?
He took up the day's newspaper. His eye was at once attracted to a
paragraph headed: “Mr. Raeburn at Longstaff.” The report, sent from
the same source as the report in the “Longstaff Mercury,” which had so
greatly displeased Raeburn that morning, struck Charles Osmond in a most
unfavorable light. This bitter opponent of Christianity, this unsparing
denouncer of all that he held most sacred, THIS was the man for whom
he was sacrificing friendship, reputation, advancement. A feeling of
absolute disgust rose within him. For a moment the thought came: “I
can't have any more to do with the man.”
But he was too honest not to detect almost at once his own Pharisaical,
un-Christlike spirit.
“Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things
of others. Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus.”
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