He had been selfishly consulting his own happiness, his own ease. Worse
still, he, of all men in the world, had dared to set himself up as too
virtuous forsooth to have anything to do with an atheist. Was that
the mind which was in Christ? Was He a strait-laced, self-righteous
Pharisee, too good, too religious to have anything to say to those
who disagreed with Him? Did He not live and die for those who are yet
enemies to God? Was not the work of reconciliation the work he came for?
Did He calculate the loss to Himself, the risk of failure? Ah, no, those
who would imitate God must first give as a free gift, without thought
of self, perfect love to all, perfect justice through that love, or else
they are not like the Father who “maketh His sun to shine on the evil
and the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.”
Charles Osmond paced to and fro, the look of trouble gradually passing
from his face. Presently he paused beside the open window; it looked
upon the little back garden, a tiny strip of ground, indeed, but just
now bright with sunshine and fresh with the beauty of early summer. The
sunshine seemed to steal into his heart as he prayed.
“All-Father, drive out my selfish cowardice, my self-righteous conceit.
Give me Thy spirit of perfect love to all, give me Thy pure hatred of
sin. Melt my coldness with Thy burning charity, and if it be possible
make me fit to be Luke Raeburn's friend.”
While he still stood by the window a visitor was announced. He had been
too much absorbed to catch the name, but it seemed the most natural
thing that on turning round he should find himself face to face with the
prophet of atheism.
There he stood, a splendid specimen of humanity; every line in his
rugged Scottish face bespoke a character of extraordinary force, but the
eyes which in public Charles Osmond had seen flashing with the fire
of the man's enthusiasm, or gleaming with a cold metallic light which
indicated exactly his steely endurance of ill treatment, were now
softened and deepened by sadness. His heart went out to him. Already
he loved the man, only hitherto the world's opinions had crept into his
heart between each meeting, and had paralyzed the free God-like love.
But it was to do so no longer. That afternoon he had dealt it a final
blow, there was no more any room for it to rear its fair-speaking
form, no longer should its veiled selfishness, its so-called virtuous
indignation turn him into a Pharisaical judge.
He received him with a hand shake which conveyed to Raeburn much of the
warmth, the reality, the friendliness of the man. He had always liked
Charles Osmond, but he had generally met him either in public, or when
he was harassed and preoccupied. Now, when he was at leisure, when, too,
he was in great trouble, he instinctively perceived that Osmond had in a
rare degree the broad-hearted sympathy which he was just now in need of.
From that minute a life-long friendship sprung up between the two men.
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