“You are very good to wish to set me right, though you say that you have
no heart to give me—that you feel it is but mockery for you to make me
the proposal you have. I do not so regard it, and I deeply sympathize
with you in your great loss—in your blighted hopes, and honor you for
your faithfulness to one who was so dear. But, Dr. Winthrop, a man in
your position needs a pleasant home and a devoted wife, and I believe
both those results would be obtained if I should accept your proposal;
and more than that, a wrong would be righted—the Rochester-Hamilton
fortunes, which should never have been willed otherwise upon such
arbitrary conditions, would be secured to the proper heirs. Do not deem
me unmaidenly, I pray, if I confess that my feelings toward you are of
such a nature that I am not only willing, but glad, to devote my life to
you—that I am even sanguine enough to hope that I shall yet make the
future hold something of content, if not of positive happiness for you.
Believing this, and knowing also that my own hopes have no higher aim
than to make myself useful in contributing to your future comfort and
interest, even though I may never win your love, I gratefully accept the
offer of your hand, and pledge myself to be a faithful and helpful wife
to you.
“Yours now and ever,
“SARAH ROCHESTER.”
A groan of misery burst from Dr. Winthrop’s white lips as he finished
reading this cunningly constructed epistle.
“Has the girl no sense of shame—no discernment?” he cried fiercely.
“Could she not understand that my letter was but a mere form—a simple
pretext to give her a chance to set herself right with my mother and her
own? Could she not see that I shrank from all thought of marriage, with
any woman, with a feeling of absolute loathing? Great Heaven! She has
pledged herself to me—she has made the affair a formal engagement, and I
am bound to her in spite of myself!”
Oh, if he could have foreseen what the result of his letter would have
been, his hand would have withered before writing it!
Still he believed that she really loved him; she had betrayed it
involuntarily—as he imagined—that morning when he had gone to tell her
of the danger of remaining in Paris; she had confessed it again in her
letter to-day. Her life, then, would be ruined if she did not marry him.
She would lose her fortune through no fault of her own, and her mother
would also forfeit the independent control of the income of fifty
thousand dollars.
He realized that Miss Rochester was beautiful; that she would shine in
society, and be an ornament in any man’s home, and having been allowed
to see only the best side of her nature, he did not once imagine her to
be the hypocrite that she was.
Why, then, since his own life was so hopelessly ruined, should he not
gracefully submit to the inevitable, and sacrifice himself to the wishes
and good of others?
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