“By the way, I take it for granted that Agnes Mowbray has followed
the example which I assume you have shown her, and that she also has
children round her knees. What strange memories the writing of names
awakens! I am nearly sure that I told Agnes Mowbray that I loved
her--nay, worse than that, I'm nearly sure that I did love her. Don't
make mischief, old man, by hinting so much to her husband, i may see her
when I get back to England; but I shall not be able to stir from here
for at least six months. You can have go idea how thoroughly broken down
I am.”
Her tears did not flow when she had finished reading the letter, written
in that curiously cramped hand that scarcely bore any resemblance to
the bold scrawl which ran over the old pages of his letters that
she treasured. She did not weep. She felt a curious little sting of
disappointment as she read the latter part of the postscript--a curious
little stab, as with the point of a sharp needle.
He had said no word about her in any part of the letter: he had made no
allusion to her until he had that afterthought which he embodied in the
postscript, and then he had only alluded to her in order that he might
express a doubt in regard to her constancy.
Yes; he had actually taken for granted that she had cast to the winds
the promise which she had made to him--the promise to love him and him
only, and to wait patiently until his return should unite their lives
for evermore. Did it seem to him impossible that any woman should remain
faithful to one man when apart from him? Was it possible that he knew so
little of her nature as to fancy that the passing of years would weaken
her faith? What has time got to do with such matters as love and faith?
For a moment she felt that sharp stab, but then the pain that it caused
her passed away in the thought of the rapture which could not fail to be
his when he became aware of the truth--of her truth, of her love, of her
faith in the bounty of heaven. It was not pride in her own fidelity that
she felt at that moment: she could not see that she had any reason for
pride, for fidelity was so much a part of her nature she had ceased to
think of it, just as a man with a sound heart never gives a thought
to his heart. It had never occurred to her that there was anything
remarkable in the fact that she had passed eight years of her life
waiting for the return of the man whom all the world believed to be
dead. If she had been waiting for double the time she would not have
felt any cause for pride. The glow which came over her, making her
forget the pain that she had felt on reading the careless words of her
lover's postscript, was due to the thought of the delight that would be
his when he came to know that she had never a thought of loving any one
save himself.
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