Two hours later she came down to lunch with the determined air of one
who had come to a conclusion.
"These bills must be met, in part at least," she said, "and the sooner
the better. After that we must buy no more than we can pay for, if
it's only a crust of bread. I shall take the first train to-morrow and
dispose of some of my jewelry. Who of you will contribute some also?
We all have more than we shall ever need."
"Pawn our jewelry!" they all shrieked.
"No, sell it," said Edith firmly.
"You hateful creature!" sobbed Zell. "If Mr. Van Dam heard it he would
never come near me again."
"If he's that kind of a man, he had better not," was the sharp retort.
"I'll never forgive you if you do it. You shall not spoil all my
chances and your own too. He as good as offered himself to me, and I
insist on your giving me a chance to write to him before you take one
of your mad steps."
They all clamored against her purpose so strongly that Edith was borne
down and reluctantly gave way. Zell wrote immediately a touching,
pathetic letter that would have moved a man of one knightly instinct
to come to her rescue. Van Dam read it with a look of fiendish
exultation, and calling on Gus said:
"We will go up to-morrow. The right time has come. They won't be nice
as to terms any longer."
It was an unfortunate thing for Edith that she had yielded at this
time to the policy of waiting one hour longer. In the two days that
intervened before the young men appeared there was time for that kind
of thought that tempts and weakens. She was in that most dangerous
attitude of irresolution. The toilsome path of independent labor
looked very hard and thorny--more than that, it looked lonely. This
latter aspect causes multitudes to shrink, where the work would not.
She knew enough of society to feel sure that her mother was right, and
that the moment she entered on bread-winning by any form of honest
labor, her old fashionable world was lost to her forever. And she knew
of no other world, she had no other friends save those of the gilded
past. She did not, with her healthful frame and energetic spirit,
shrink so much from labor as from association with the laboring
classes. She had been educated to think of them only as coarse and
common, and to make no distinctions.
"Even if a few are good and intelligent as these Laceys seem, they
can't understand my feelings and past life, so there will be no
congeniality, and I shall have to work practically alone. Perhaps in
time I shall become coarse and common like the rest," she said with a
half-shudder at the thought of old-fashioned garb, slipshod dressing,
and long monotonous hours at one employment. All these were
inseparable in her mind from poverty and labor.
Then after a long silence, during which she had sat with her chin
resting on her hands, she continued:
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