There were plenty of good kind people in Pushton, but Mrs. Allen's
"policy" had driven them away as far as possible. By their course the
Allens had placed themselves, in relation to all classes, in the most
unapproachable position, and their "friends" from the city and Tom
Crowl's gossip had made matters far worse. Poor Edith thought they
were utterly ignored. She would have felt worse if she had known that
every one was talking about them.
The next day Edith started on another unsuccessful expedition to the
village, and while she was gone, Zell went to the post-office to which
she had told Van Dam to direct his reply. She found the plausible lie
we have already placed before the reader.
At first she experienced a sensation of anger that he had not complied
with her wish. It was a new experience to have gentlemen, especially
Van Dam, so long her obsequious slave, think of anything contrary to
her wishes. She also feared that Edith might be right, and that Van
Dam designed evil against her. She would not openly admit, even to
herself, that this was his purpose, and yet Edith's words had been so
clear and strong, and Van Dam's conditions placed her so entirely at
his mercy, that she shrank from him and was fascinated at the same
time.
But instead of indignantly casting the letter from her, she read it
again and again. Her foolish heart pleaded for him.
"He couldn't be so false to me, so false to his written word," she
said, and the letter was hidden away, and she passed into the
dangerous stage of irresolution, where temptation is secretly dwelt
upon. She hesitated, and, according to the proverb, the woman who does
this is lost. Instead of indignantly casting temptation from her, she
left her course open, to be decided somewhat by circumstances. She
wilfully shut her eyes to the danger, and tried to believe, and did
almost believe that her lover meant honestly by her.
And so the days passed, Edith vainly trying to find something to do,
and working hard in her garden, which as yet brought no return. She
was often very sad and despondent, and again very irritable. Laura's
apathy only deepened, and she seemed like one not yet awakened from a
dream of the past. Zell made some show of work, but after all left
almost everything for Hannibal as before, and when Edith sharply
chided her, she laughed recklessly and said:
"What's the use? If we are going to starve we might as well do so at
once and have it over with."
"I won't starve," said Edith, almost fiercely. "There must be honest
work somewhere in the world for one willing to do it, and I'm going to
find it. At any rate, can raise food in my garden before long."
"I'm afraid we shall starve before your cabbages and carrots come to
maturity, and we might as well as to try to live on such garbage.
Supplies are running low, and, as you say, the money is nearly gone."
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