"Yes, and people won't trust us any more. Two or three declined to in
the village to-day, and I felt too discouraged and ashamed to ask any
further. For some reason people seem afraid of us. I see persons turn
and look after me, and yet they avoid me. Two or three impudent clerks
tried to make my acquaintance, but I snubbed them in such a way that
they will let me alone hereafter. I wonder if any stories could have
got around about us? Country towns are such places for gossip."
"Have you heard of any scholars?" said Laura languidly.
"No, not one," was Edith's despondent answer. "If nothing turns up
before, I'll go to New York next Monday and sell some more things, and
I'll go where I'm known this time."
Nothing turned up, and by Sunday they had nothing in the house save a
little dry bread, which they ate moistened with wine and water. Mrs.
Allen sighed and cried all day. Laura had the strange manner of one
awaking up to something unrealized before. Restlessness began to take
the place of apathy, and her eyes often sought the face of Edith in a
questioning manner. Finding her alone in the garden, she said:
"Why, Edith, I'm hungry. I never remember being hungry before. Is it
possible we have come to this?"
Edith burst into tears, and said brokenly:
"Come with me to the arbor."
"I'm sure I'm willing to do anything," said Laura piteously, "but I
never realized we would come to this."
"Oh! how can the birds sing?" said Edith bitterly. "This beautiful
spring weather, with its promise and hopefulness, seems a mockery. The
sun is shining brightly, flowers are budding and blooming, and all the
world seems so happy, but my heart aches as if it would burst. I'm
hungry, too, and I know poor old Hannibal is faint, though he tries to
keep up whenever I am around."
"But, Edith, if people knew how we are situated they would not let us
want. Our old acquaintances in New York, or our relations even, though
not very friendly, would surely help us."
"Oh, yes, I suppose so for a little while, but I can't bring myself to
ask for charity, and no one would under take to support us. What
discourages me most is that I can't get work that will bring in money.
Between people wishing to have nothing to do with us, on one hand, and
my ignorance on the other, there seems no resource. Some of those whom
we owe seem inclined to press us. I'm so afraid of losing this place
and being out on the street. If I could only get a chance somewhere,
or get time to learn to do something well!"
Then after a moment she asked suddenly, "Where's Zell?"
"In her room, I think"
"I don't like Zell's manner," said Edith, after a brief painful
revery. "It's so hard and reckless. Something seems to be on her mind.
She has long fits of abstraction as if she were thinking of something,
or weighing some plan. Could she have had any communication with that
villain Van Dam? Oh! that would be the bitterest drop of all in our
cup of sorrow. I would rather see her dead than that."
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