Still keeping the little Bible in her hand, she went to Laura's room.
Through the partially open door she saw, with a sudden chill of fear,
that the bed had not been slept in. Pushing the door open, she looked
eagerly around with a strange dread growing upon her. Laura was
writing at a table with her back toward the entrance. There was a
strong odor of laudanum in the room, and a horrible thought blanched
Edith's cheek. Stealing with noiseless tread across the intervening
space, with hand pressed upon her heart to still its wild throbbings,
she looked over her sister's shoulder, and followed the tracings of
her pen with dilating eyes.
"Mother, Edith, farewell! When you read these sad words I shall be
dead. I fear death--I cannot tell you how I fear it, but I fear more
that dreadful gulf which daily grows nearer. I must die. There is no
other resource for a poor, weak woman like me. If I were only strong--if I had only been taught something--but I am helpless. Do not be too
hard upon poor little Zell. Her eyes were blinded by a false love; she
did not see the black gulf as I see it. If God cares for what such
poor forlorn creatures as I do, may He forgive. I have thought till my
brain reels. I have tried to pray, but hardly knew what I was praying
to. I don't understand God--He is far off. The world scorns us. There
is none to help. There is no other remedy save the drug at my side,
which will soon bring sleep which I hope will be dreamless. Farewell!
"Your poor, trembling, despairing LAURA."
Every sentence was written with a sigh that seemed as if it might be
the last that the burdened soul could, give, and every line was
blotted with tears. Edith saw that the poor, thin face was pinched and
wan with misery, and that the pallor of death had already blanched
even her lips, and, with a shudder of horror, her eyes fell on a phial
of laudanum at Laura's left hand, from which she was partially turned
away, in the act of writing.
With an ecstatic thrill of joy, she now understood how her prayer had
been answered. How could there have been rest--how could there have
been peace--if this awful tragedy had been consummated?
With one devout, grateful glance upward, she silently took away the
fatal drug, and laid her Bible down in its place.
Laura finished her letter, leaned back, and murmured a long,
trembling, "Farewell!" that was like a low, mournful vibration of an
Aeolian harp, when the night-breeze breathes upon it. Then she pressed
her right hand over her eyes, shuddered, and tremblingly put out her
left for that which would end all. But, instead of the phial which she
had placed there but a little before, her hand rested upon a book.
Startled, she opened her eyes, and saw not the dreaded poison, but in
golden letters that seemed luminous to her dazzled sight:
HOLY BIBLE.
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