Edith took her hand, and replied, "Mrs. Lacey, you burden me with
kindness."
"It is not my wish to burden, but to relieve you, Miss Allen. I think
I can safely say, from our slight acquaintance, that in the case of
sickness or trouble at a neighbor's, you would not spare yourself. We
cease to be human when we leave the too heavily burdened to struggle
alone."
Edith's eyes grew moist, and she said, simply, "I cannot refuse
kindness offered in that spirit, and may God bless you for it. Good-night."
Arden's only parting was a grave, silent bow.
Edith was soon alone again, watching by her mother. With some natural
curiosity, she opened the letter that was written by one so different
from any man that she had ever known before. Its opening, at least,
was reassuring.
"MISS EDITH ALLEN--You need not fear that I shall offend again by
either writing or speaking such rash words as those which so deeply
pained you this morning. They would not have been spoken then, perhaps
never, had I not been startled out of my self-control--had I not seen
that you suspected me of evil. I was very unwise, and I sincerely ask
your pardon. But I meant no wrong, and as you referred to my sister, I
can say, before God, that I would shield you as I would shield her.
"I know little of the conventionalities of the world. I live but a
hermit's life in it, and my letter may seem to you very foolish and
romantic, still I know that my motives are not ignoble, and with this
consciousness I venture.
"Reverencing and honoring you as I do, I cannot bear that you should
think too meanly of me. The world regards me as a sullen, stolid,
bearish creature, but I have almost ceased to care for its opinion. I
have received from it nothing but coldness and scorn, and I pay my
debt in like coin. But perhaps you can imagine why I cannot endure
that you should regard me in like manner. I would not have you think
my nature a stony, sterile place, when something tells me that it is
like a garden that needs only sunlight of some kind. My life has been
blighted by the wrong of another, who should have been my best helper.
The knowledge and university culture for which I thirsted were denied
me. And yet, believe me, only my mother's need--only the absolute
necessity that she and my sister should have a daily protector--kept
me from pushing out into the word, and trying to work my way unaided
to better things. Sacred duty has chained me down to a life that was
outwardly most sordid and unhappy. My best solace has been my mother's
love. But from varied, somewhat extensive, though perhaps not the
wisest kind of reading, I came to dwell in a brave, beautiful, but
shadowy world that I created out of books. I was becoming satisfied
with it, not knowing any other. The real world mocked and hurt me on
every side. It is so harsh and unjust that I hate it. I hate it
infinitely more as I see its disposition to wound you, who have been
so noble and heroic. In this dream of the past--in this unreal world
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