"Guilliam--You cannot know where I am. You cannot know what has
happened. You could not be such a fiend as to cast me off and send me
here to die--and die I shall. The edge of the grave seems crumbling
under me as I write. If you have a spark of love for me, come and see
me before I die. Oh, Guilliam, Guilliam! what a heaven of a home I
would have made you, if you had only married me! It would have been my
whole life to make you happy. I said bitter words to you--forgive
them. We both have sinned--can God forgive us? I will not believe you
know what has happened. You are grieving for me--looking for me. They
took me away while you were gone. Come and see me before I die. Good-by, I'm writing in the dark--I'm dying in the dark--my soul is in the
dark--I'm going away in the dark--where, O God, where?
"Your poor little Zell.
"Smallpox Hospital (I don't know date)."
Poor, poor Zell! As in the case of a tempest-tossed one of old, "sun,
moon, and stars" had long been hidden.
Almost fainting with weakness, she sealed and directed the letter,
drew off the ring, pressed it to her lips, and then turned her eyes,
unnaturally large and bright, on the woman waiting at her side, and
said:
"Look at me! Promise me you will see that this letter is delivered.
Remember, I am going to die. If you ever hope for an hour's peace,
promise!"
"I promise," said the woman solemnly, for she was as superstitious as
avaricious, and though she had no hesitancy in breaking the rules and
taking a bribe, she would not have dared for her life to have risked
treachery to a girl whom she believed dying.
Zell gave her the ring and the letter, and sank back for the time
unconscious.
The woman had her means of communication with the city, and before
many hours elapsed the letter was on its way.
Van Dam was in a state of nervous fear till the fourteen days passed,
and then he felt that he was safe. He had his rooms thoroughly
fumigated, and was reassured by his physicians saying daily: "There
was not much danger of her giving you the disease in its first stage.
She is probably dead by this time."
But the wheels of life seemed to grow heavier and more clogged every
day. He was fast getting down to the dregs, and now almost every
pleasure palled upon his jaded taste. At one time it seemed that Zell
might so infuse her vigorous young life and vivacity into his waning
years that his last days would be his best. And this might have been
the case, if he had reformed his evil life and dealt with her as a
true man. In her strong and exceptional love, considering their
difference in age, there were great possibilities of good for both.
But he had foully perverted the last best gift of his life, and even
his blunted moral sense was awakening to the truth.
"Curse it all," he muttered, late one morning, "perhaps I had better
have married her. I hoped so much from her, and she has been nothing
but a source of trouble and danger. I wonder if she is dead."
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