Waking early in the dim dawn, she lay and thought it over, Clover
slumbering soundly beside her meanwhile. "Morning brings counsel,"
says the old proverb. In this case it seemed true. Katy, to her
surprise, found a train of fresh thoughts filling her mind, which were
not there when she fell asleep. She recalled her passionate words
and feelings of the day before. Now that the mood had passed, they
seemed to her worse than the injury which provoked them. Quick-
tempered and generous people often experience this. It was easier
for Katy to forgive Mrs. Florence, because it was needful also that
she should forgive herself.
"I said I would write to papa to take us away," she thought "Why
did I say that? What good would it do? It wouldn't make anybody
disbelieve this hateful story. They'd only think I wanted to get
away because I was found out. And papa would be so worried and
disappointed. It has cost him a great deal to get us ready and send
us here, and he wants us to stay a year. If we went home now, all
the money would be wasted. And yet how horrid it is going to be
after this! I don't feel as if I could ever bear to see Mrs.
Florence again. I must write.
"But then," her thoughts flowed on, "home wouldn't seem like home if
we went away from school in disgrace, and knew that everybody here
was believing such things. Suppose, instead, I were to write to
papa to come on and make things straight. He'd find out the truth,
and force Mrs. Florence to see it. It would be very expensive,
though; and I know he oughtn't to leave home again so soon. Oh,
dear! How hard it is to know what to do!"
"What would Cousin Helen say?" she continued, going in imagination
to the sofa-side of the dear friend who was to her like a second
conscience. She shut her eyes and invented a long talk,--her
questions, Cousin Helen's replies. But, as everybody knows, it is
impossible to play croquet by yourself and be strictly impartial to
all the four balls. Katy found that she was making Cousin Helen
play (that is, answer) as she herself wished, and not, as something
whispered, she would answer were she really there.
"It is just the 'Little Scholar' over again," she said, half aloud,
"I can't see. I don't know how to act." She remembered the dream
she once had, of a great beautiful Face and a helping hand. "And
it was real," she murmured, "and just as real, and just as near,
now as then."
The result of this long meditation was that, when Clover woke up,
she found Katy leaning over, ready to kiss her for good morning,
and looking bright and determined.
"Clovy," she said, "I've been thinking; and I'm not going to write
to papa about this affair at all!"
"Aren't you? Why not?" asked Clover, puzzled.
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