What Will He Do with It? — Volume 09Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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What Will He Do with It? — Volume 09
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
along by the flood of thoughts that had been pent within his breast
through the solitary days and haunted nights, which had made the long
transition state from his manhood's noon to its gathering eve. And in
that pause there came from afar off a melodious, melancholy strain-
softly, softly borne over the cold blue waters--softly, softly through
the sere autumnal leaves--the music of the magic flute!
"Hark!" he said, "do you not remember? Look to that beech-tree yonder!
Summer clothed it then! Do you not remember! as under that tree we
stood--that same, same note came, musical as now, undulating with rise
and fall--came, as if to interpret, by a voice from fairyland, the
beating of my own mysterious heart. You had been pleading for pardon to
one less ungrateful--less perfidious--than my comforter proved herself.
I had listened to you, wondering why anger and wrong seemed banished from
the world; and I murmured, in answer, without conscious thought of
myself: 'Happy the man whose faults your bright charity will admonish--
whose griefs your tenderness will chase away! But when, years hence,
children are born to yourself, spare me the one who shall most resemble
you, to replace the daughter whom I can only sincerely pardon when
something else can spring up to my desolate being--something that I can
cherish without the memory of falsehood and the dread of shame.' Yes, as
I ceased, came that music; and as it thrilled through the summer air, I
turned and met your eyes--turned and saw you blush--turned and heard some
faint faltering words drowning the music with diviner sweetness; and
suddenly I knew, as by a revelation, that the Child I had fostered had
grown the Woman I loved. My own soul was laid bare to me by the flash of
hope. Over the universe rushed light and colour! Oh, the Caroline of
old! What wonder that she became so fatally, so unspeakably beloved! As
some man in ancient story, banished from his native land, is told by an
oracle to seek a happier isle in undiscovered seas--freights with his all
a single bark--collects on his wandering altar the last embers of his
abandoned hearth-places beside it his exiled housebold gods; so all that
my life had left to me, hallowing and hallowed, I stored in you. . . .
I tore myself from the old native soil, the old hardy skies. Through
time's wide ocean I saw but the promised golden isle. Fables, fables!--
lying oracle!--sunken vessel!--visionary isle! And life to me had till
then been so utterly without love!--had passed in such hard labours,
without a holyday of romance--all the fountains of the unknown passion
sealed till the spell struck the rock, and every wave, every drop
sparkled fresh to a single star. Yet my boyhood, like other men's, had
dreamed of its Ideal. There at last that Ideal, come to life, bloomed
before me; there, under those beech-trees--the Caroline of old. O
wretched woman, now weeping at my side, well may you weep! Never can
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