“And no more nonsense?”
“I thought it all out last night,” said she. “I understand that you
haven’t got the money to support a wife----”
“Stop right there!” commanded he. “Can’t you ever get it straight? I
don’t love you--and you don’t love me. That’s all.”
“Is my hat on straight?... I must hurry.... Well, I’ve no time to
discuss. Only I do admire and respect you for not wanting to marry a
girl when you couldn’t support her properly. Now, don’t get red and
cross and begin to bluster at me. I must go. Good-by.”
And, without giving him a chance to collect words for a reply, she
darted lightly and gracefully away.
IV
AN UPSET CANOE
The picture progressed steadily. There were no interruptions from the
weather, and a paid model would not have been so regular as was Rix.
But progress was slow. Roger blamed himself in part for this; he was
a slow workman, growing slower always as his work neared completion.
“I never saw anybody so painstaking,” said Rix. “And you’re just the
opposite in everything else but your painting.” The chief reason,
however, for the snail’s pace of this particular work was the model.
Rix came early and stayed late; but, after their plain talk and
agreement, her strength seemed to fail rapidly. She looked just the
same; she had every sign of perfect health; but after ten or fifteen
minutes of posing she would insist on a rest--a good, long rest. As he
had no right to criticise or control this voluntary model, he could
not protest. And, it being essential to the picture that the model
keep on till the end, was he not merely doing his simple duty by his
picture in trying to amuse and interest her during the long pauses?
Not that talking with her was a disagreeable task--no, indeed, or a
task at all. But his conscience, as a serious man bent upon a career,
needed constant reassurance that he was really not trifling away the
gorgeous lights of those long mornings in dawdling with a foolish,
frivolous girl who cared only for laughter--that he was not encouraging
his liking for her and failing in his duty as an honorable man, as her
friend, to discourage her liking for him.
“Don’t be cross with me,” she said one morning when he fell into
an obviously depressed reverie during a rest. She had the habit of
observing him as a woman observes only the man of whom she believes
that he is more worth while as a subject for thought than herself.
“I’m not cross with you,” replied he.
“Then, with yourself.”
“Can’t help it. I work so infernally slow--slower all the time.”
He thought he saw the diaphanous gossamer of a smile flit swiftly
across her face. But he could not be sure; it might have been an
imagining of his own sensitiveness. “I read somewhere,” observed she,
“that genius is the capacity for taking infinite pains.”
“I’m hanged if I know whether I’m taking pains, as I hope, or am just
dawdling, as I fear and as you believe. However, we’ll soon be done.”
“You say that as if you were glad.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account