"Yes, Heather, you shall be quite alone in my bedroom," said Lady Carrington. I had no manners at that moment, no sense of civility. "I know the way to your bedroom," I said. I dashed upstairs without waiting for her to lead me; I rushed into the room, I turned the key in the lock, and then I flung myself on the floor. I was alone, thank God for that! How I beat out my own terrible suffering, how I fought and fought and fought with the demon who rent me, I can never describe to any mortal. No tears came to my relief. After a time I sat up. I had so far recovered my self-possession that I could at least remain quiet. I went stealthily towards the big looking-glass; I saw my reflection in it, my little pale face, my dark hair in its orderly curls--those curls which even my tempest of grief could scarcely disarrange, my neat, snuff-coloured brown dress--so old-fashioned and therefore none so beloved. That morning I had gone shopping with _her_--I had allowed her to buy me dresses on dresses, and hats and toques, and muffs, and gloves, and shoes--oh! I would not touch one of her things! I felt at that moment that I could have killed her! To be torn from father, to find him again and then to lose him, that was the crudest stroke of all! I looked at my wan face in the glass and hoped that I should die soon; that was the only thing left to wish for--to live in such a way that I should die soon. I thought that I might effect this by a course of starvation. I would begin at once. To-day was Thursday--if I ate nothing at all from the present moment until Monday, there was a good chance of my dying on Monday. That would be the best plan. There came a tap at the room door. "It is I, dear," said Lady Carrington. I even hated kind Lady Carrington at that moment. Had she not given me the news? I went unwillingly and slowly towards the door. I unlocked it and she entered. "That is right," she said, looking at me and suppressing, as she told me afterwards, a shocked exclamation, "you are calmer now, darling." "I cannot speak of it," I said. "Dear child, no one wants you to; and I have been arranging with your father that you are to stay with me for the present." "Oh, I don't want that," I said, a great lump rising in my throat; "I want to be with him while I can have him. There is only between now--this Thursday--until Monday. I'd like to be with him for that little time." "But you won't, dear Heather. He will be occupied almost entirely with Lady Helen Dalrymple." "Then it doesn't matter," I said. "Did you say they were downstairs, Lady Carrington?" "Yes; they are in the drawing-room; they are waiting for you. They asked me to break it to you, and I did my best." "I am quite ready to--to see them," I said. When we reached the drawing-room a servant flung open the door. Lady Carrington went first and I followed.