When he began to open up, it was after a sad fashion at first. To
resume my simile of the pimpernel--it was to disclose a heart in which
the glowing purple was blanched to a sickly violet. What happiness he
had, came in fits and bursts, and passed as quickly, leaving him
depressed and miserable. He was always either wishing to be happy, or
trying to be sure of the grounds of the brief happiness he had. He
allowed the natural blessedness of his years hardly a chance: the
moment its lobes appeared above ground, he was handling them, examining
them, and trying to pull them open. No wonder they crept underground
again! It may seem hardly credible that such should be the case with a
boy of fifteen, but I am not mistaken in my diagnosis. I will go a
little further. Gifted with the keenest perceptions, and a nature
unusually responsive to the feelings of others, he was born to be an
artist. But he was content neither with his own suggestions, nor with
understanding those of another; he must, by the force of his own will,
generate his friend’s feeling in himself, not perceiving the thing
impossible. This was one point at which we touched, and which went far
to enable me to understand him. The original in him was thus constantly
repressed, and he suffered from the natural consequences of repression.
He suffered also on the physical side from a tendency to disease of the
lungs inherited from his mother.
Mr Forest’s house stood high on the Grindelwald side of the Wengern
Alp, under a bare grassy height full of pasture both Summer and Winter.
In front was a great space, half meadow, half common, rather poorly
covered with hill-grasses. The rock was near the surface, and in places
came through, when the grass was changed for lichens and mosses.
Through this rocky meadow now roamed, now rushed, now tumbled one of
those Alpine streams the very thought of whose ice-born plenitude makes
me happy yet. Its banks were not abrupt, but rounded gently in, and
grassy down to the water’s brink. The larger torrents of Winter wore
the channel wide, and the sinking of the water in Summer let the grass
grow within it. But peaceful as the place was, and merry with the
constant rush of this busy stream, it had, even in the hottest Summer
day, a memory of the Winter about it, a look of suppressed desolation;
for the only trees upon it were a score of straggling pines--all dead,
as if blasted by lightning, or smothered by snow. Perhaps they were the
last of the forest in that part, and their roots had reached a stratum
where they could not live. All I know is that there they stood, blasted
and dead every one of them.
Charley could never bear them, and even disliked the place because of
them. His father was one whom a mote in his brother’s eye repelled. The
son suffered for this in twenty ways--one of which was that a single
spot in the landscape was to him enough to destroy the loveliness of
exquisite surroundings.
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