Perhaps because he had slept for so long in the afternoon her husband
was more wakeful; for hours he sat with his eyes wide and his chin
propped on his hands. After nightfall had come silence from the guns
and at first the only sounds were forest sounds—night-bird talk and the
lapping of unseen water at his feet. Later Griselda was restless and
became conversational, talking rapidly and brokenly in a delirium of
pain and fever and paying no heed to his efforts to answer and calm her.
Her mind, uncontrolled, had returned to a familiar channel; she was back
in the world that had crumbled but yesterday, waging war as she
understood it till she saw the hostages die. The Great Civil War that
you fought with martyrdoms, with protests at meetings and hammers on
plate-glass windows—he could hear she was back in the thick of it
incoherently addressing an audience. Snatches of old-time
denunciation—Asquith, McKenna, the sins of the Labour Party—and,
emerging from a torrent of incomprehensibility, the names of the Leaders
of the Movement. He listened, crouched in the darkness, a starving
fugitive—who had seen men dismembered and done to death in a war that
was not civil; and suddenly, crouched and starving in the darkness, he
began to laugh out loud. He remembered—quite plainly he remembered—a
letter written to the daily Press to point out with indignation that one
of the Leaders of the Movement had been hurt in the ankle in the course
of the Great Civil War.... He only laughed briefly; the echo of his own
voice frightened him, and its cackle died swiftly away. In the grave
black silence it sounded like a blasphemy, and he told himself
excusingly that he had not been able to help it.
With rest and cessation of movement his brain worked more easily; and
with the passing of his first savage hunger he was no longer preoccupied
with the needs of his empty stomach. He considered the situation,
dispassionately and curiously detached from it; deciding, with an odd
lack of emotion, that to-morrow could not be as to-day. Whatever the
need, Griselda could walk no further; he, for his part, was incapable of
dragging her; when the light came they must just sit and wait. His mind
refused to trouble itself with details of what would happen if they sat
and waited too long. Looking back at that night it seemed to him that he
was not able to feel very much; his capacity for emotion was exhausted,
even as his body. When Griselda stirred or groaned he tried to shift
her more comfortably, when she gasped for water he helped her to bend
down and drink; but the power of imaginative terror had left him for the
time being, and he no longer trembled and sickened at her suffering as
he had done when she was first struck down.
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