Wilson's Tales of the Borders and of Scotland, Volume 21
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Wilson's Tales of the Borders and of Scotland, Volume 21
Scottish Borders (Scotland) -- Fiction
wayward and strange workings I am endeavouring to describe; and yet in
this case, and in all its accompaniments, I have as perfect a
recollection of facts, and reverence of feeling, as if I were yet the
child of seven, visited for the first time with tidings of death.
My grandmother's end drew nigh, and I was commanded, or rather dragged,
to her bedside. There I still see her lying, calm, but emaciated, in
remarkably white sheets, and a head dress which seemed to speak of some
approaching change. It was drawn closely over her brow, and covered the
chin up to her lips. Nature had manifestly given up the contest; and
although her voice was scarcely audible, her reason evidently continued
unclouded and entire. She spoke to me slowly and solemnly of religion,
obedience to my mother, and being obliging to every one; laid, by my
mother's assistance, her hand upon my head, as I kneeled at her bedside,
and in a few instants had ceased to breathe. I lifted up my head at my
mother's bidding, and beheld a corpse. What I saw or what I felt, I can
never express in words. I can only recollect that I sprang immediately,
horror-struck, to my feet, rushed out at the door, made for the closest
and thickest part of the brushwood of the adjoining brae, and, casting
myself headlong into the midst of it, burst into tears. I wept, nay,
roared aloud; my grief and astonishment were intense whilst they lasted,
but they did not last long; for when I returned home about dusk, I found
a small table spread over with a clean cloth, upon which was placed a
bottle with spirits, a loaf of bread, and cheese cut into pretty large
pieces. Around this table sat my mother, with two old women from the
nearest hamlet. They were talking in a low but in a wonderfully cheerful
tone, as I thought, and had evidently been partaking of refreshment.
Being asked to join them, I did so; but ever and anon the white sheet in
the bed, which shaped itself out most fearfully into the human form,
drew my attention, and excited something of the feeling which a ghost
might have occasioned. I had ceased in a great measure to feel for my
grandmother's death. I now felt the alarms and agitations of
superstition. It was not because she had fled from us that I was
agitated, but because that, though dead, she still seemed present, in
all the inconceivable mystery of a dead life!
The funeral called forth, from the adjoining glens and cottages, a
respectable attendance, and at the same time gave me an opportunity of
partaking, unnoticed, of more refreshment than suited the occasion or my
years; in fact, I became little less than intoxicated, and was
exceedingly surprised at finding myself, towards evening, in the midst
of the same bush where I had experienced my paroxysm of grief, singing
aloud, in all the exultation of exhilarated spirits. Such is infancy and
boyhood--
"The tear forgot, as soon as shed."
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