Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
When the time came that he could be taken to the room where Sue lay, his
self-possession had returned to him and his mind had begun blaming the
little dead stranger for the unhappiness of the past months and for the
long separation from what he thought was the real Sue. Outside the door
of the room into which she had been taken he stopped, hearing her voice,
thin and weak, talking to Grover.
“Unfit--Sue McPherson unfit,” said the voice, and Sam thought it was
filled with an infinite weariness.
He ran through the door and dropped on his knees by her bed. She turned
her eyes to him smiling bravely.
“The next time we’ll make it,” she said.
The second child born to the young McPhersons arrived out of time. Again
Sam walked, this time through the corridor of his own house and without
the consoling presence of the sweet-faced Scotch woman, and again
he shook his head at Doctor Grover who came to him consoling and
reassuring.
After the death of the second child Sue lay for months in bed. In his
arms, in her own room, she wept openly in the presence of Grover and the
nurses, crying out against her unfitness. For several days she refused
to see Colonel Tom, harbouring in her mind the notion that he was in
some way responsible for her physical inability to bear living children,
and when she got up from her bed, she remained for months white and
listless but grimly determined upon another attempt for the little life
she so wanted to feel in her arms.
During the days of her carrying the second baby she had again the fierce
ugly attacks of temper that had shattered Sam’s nerves, but having
learned to understand, he went quietly about his work, trying as far
as in him lay to close his ears to the stinging, hurtful things she
sometimes said; and the third time, it was agreed between them that
if they were again unsuccessful they would turn their minds to other
things.
“If we do not succeed this time we might as well count ourselves through
with each other for good,” she said one day in one of the fits of cold
anger that were a part of child bearing with her.
That second night when Sam walked in the hospital corridor he was beside
himself. He felt like a young recruit called to face an unseen enemy and
to stand motionless and inactive in the presence of the singing death
that ran through the air. He remembered a story, told when he was a
child by a fellow soldier who had come to visit his father, of the
prisoners at Andersonville creeping in the darkness past armed sentries
to a little pool of stagnant water beyond the dead line, and felt that
he too was creeping unarmed and helpless in the neighbourhood of death.
In a conference at his house between the three some weeks before, it had
been decided, after tearful insistence on the part of Sue and a stand
on the part of Grover, who declared that he would not remain on the case
unless permitted to use his own judgment, that an operation should be
performed.
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