Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Through street after street he ran. Twice he came out upon the shores
of the lake, and, then turning, went back into the heart of the city
through streets bathed in the warm moonlight. Once he turned quickly at
a corner and stepping into a vacant lot stood behind a high board fence
as a policeman strolled along the street. Into his head came the idea
that he had killed Sue and that the blue-clad figure walking with heavy
tread on the stone pavement was seeking him to take him back to where
she lay white and lifeless. Again he stopped, before a little frame
drugstore on a corner, and sitting down on the steps before it cursed
God openly and defiantly like an angry boy defying his father. Some
instinct led him to look at the sky through the tangle of telegraph
wires overhead.
“Go on and do what you dare!” he cried. “I will not follow you now. I
shall never try to find you after this.”
Presently he began laughing at himself for the instinct that had led
him to look at the sky and to shout out his defiance and, getting up,
wandered on. In his wanderings he came to a railroad track where a
freight train groaned and rattled over a crossing. When he came up to it
he jumped upon an empty coal car, falling as he climbed, and cutting his
face upon the sharp pieces of coal that lay scattered about the bottom
of the car.
The train ground along slowly, stopping occasionally, the engine
shrieking hysterically.
After a time he got out of the car and dropped to the ground. On all
sides of him were marshes, the long rank marsh grasses rolling and
tossing in the moonlight. When the train had passed he followed it,
walking stumblingly along. As he walked, following the blinking lights
at the end of the train, he thought of the scene in the hospital and
of Sue lying dead for that--that ping livid and shapeless on the table
under the lights.
Where the solid ground ran up to the tracks Sam sat down under a tree.
Peace came over him. “This is the end of things,” he thought, and
was like a tired child comforted by its mother. He thought of the
sweet-faced nurse who had walked with him that other time in the
corridor of the hospital and who had wept because of his fears, and
then of the night when he had felt the throat of his father between
his fingers in the squalid little kitchen. He ran his hands along
the ground. “Good old ground,” he said. A sentence came into his mind
followed by the figure of John Telfer striding, stick in hand, along a
dusty road. “Here is spring come and time to plant out flowers in the
grass,” he said aloud. His face felt swollen and sore from the fall in
the freight car and he lay down on the ground under a tree and slept.
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