Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
In the little house on the bluff there was silence. Outside the house
there was darkness and darkness lay over Sam’s spirit. The boy Joe
went quickly about, putting the dishes Sam had wiped on the shelves.
Somewhere on the river, far below the house, a steamboat whistled. The
backs of the hands of the boy were covered with freckles. How quick and
competent the hands were. Here was new life, as yet clean, unsoiled,
unshaken by life. Sam was shamed by the trembling of his own hands. He
had always wanted quickness and firmness within his own body, the health
of the body that is a temple for the health of the spirit. He was an
American and down deep within himself was the moral fervor that is
American and that had become so strangely perverted in himself and
others. As so often happened with him, when he was deeply stirred, an
army of vagrant thoughts ran through his head. The thoughts had taken
the place of the perpetual scheming and planning of his days as a man of
affairs, but as yet all his thinking had brought him to nothing and had
only left him more shaken and uncertain then ever.
The dishes were now all wiped and he went out of the kitchen glad to
escape the shy silent presence of the boy. “Has life quite gone from me?
Am I but a dead thing walking about?” he asked himself. The presence of
the children had made him feel that he was himself but a child, a grown
tired and shaken child. There was maturity and manhood somewhere abroad.
Why could he not come to it? Why could it not come into him?
The boy Tom returned from having put his sister into bed and the two
boys said good night to the strange man in their mother’s house. Joe,
the bolder of the two, stepped forward and offered his hand. Sam shook
it solemnly and then the younger boy came forward.
“I’ll be around here to-morrow I think,” Sam said huskily.
The boys were gone, into the silence of the house, and Sam walked up and
down in the little room. He was restless as though about to start on a
new journey and half unconsciously began running his hands over his body
wishing it strong and hard as when he tramped the road. As on the day
when he had walked out of the Chicago Club bound on his hunt for
Truth, he let his mind go so that it played freely over his past life,
reviewing and analysing.
For hours he sat on the porch or walked up and down in the room where
the lamp still burned brightly. Again the smoke from his pipe tasted
good on his tongue and all the night air had a sweetness that brought
back to him the walk beside the bridle path in Jackson Park when Sue had
given him herself, and with herself a new impulse in life.
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