Bildungsromans; France -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Villages -- France -- Fiction
figures. Where had they been? What were they saying to one another in
the darkness so confidentially?
I returned home, desperately clutching my windfall of ten thousand
francs, which would have enabled me to arrange so many pleasant
surprises for that Gilberte whom now I had made up my mind never to see
again. No doubt my call at the dealer's had brought me happiness by
allowing me to expect that in future, whenever I saw my friend, she
would be pleased with me and grateful. But if I had not called there, if
my cabman had not taken the Avenue des Champs-Elysées, I should not
have seen Gilberte with that young man. Thus a single action may have
two contradictory effects, and the misfortune that it engenders cancel
the good fortune that it has already brought one. There had befallen me
the opposite of what so frequently happens. We desire some pleasure, and
the material means of obtaining it are lacking. "It is a mistake,"
Labruyère tells us, "to be in love without an ample fortune." There is
nothing for it but to attempt a gradual elimination of our desire for
that pleasure. In my case, however, the material means had been
forthcoming, but at the same moment, if not by a logical effect, at any
rate as a fortuitous consequence of that initial success, my pleasure
had been snatched from me. As, for that matter, it seems as though it
must always be. As a rule, however, not on the same evening on which we
have acquired what makes it possible. Usually, we continue to struggle
and to hope for a little longer. But the pleasure can never be realised.
If we succeed in overcoming the force of circumstances, nature at once
shifts the battle-ground, placing it within ourselves, and effects a
gradual change in our heart until it desires something other than what
it is going to obtain. And if this transposition has been so rapid that
our heart has not had time to change, nature does not, on that account,
despair of conquering us, in a manner more gradual, it is true, more
subtle, but no less efficacious. It is then, at the last moment, that
the possession of our happiness is wrested from us, or rather it is that
very possession which nature, with diabolical cleverness, uses to
destroy our happiness. After failure in every quarter of the domain of
life and action, it is a final incapacity, the mental incapacity for
happiness that nature creates in us. The phenomenon of happiness either
fails to appear, or at once gives way to the bitterest of reactions.
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