England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
“You forget I don’t know where they come, nor the meaning of them,” said
Lottie, calmly. “I never heard an opera. I think these things are
beautiful, but they only sing to my ear, they don’t come in to _me_.”
Rollo shook his head. He was half touched, half shocked. It was her
ignorance; but then a woman destined for a prima donna, a woman with
musical genius, _ought_ to know the best by intuition, he thought. All
the same, he was more interested than if she had raved as the
commonplace, half educated amateur raves. “But Handel does,” he said.
“Ah!” Lottie cried, her face lighting up. But she added, after a moment,
“I am too ignorant to be worth talking to; you will be disgusted. I
never thought much about Handel. It was not Handel, it was _that_.” A
flush of colour came over her face with the recollection. She was too
uninstructed (notwithstanding the neighbourhood of the Abbey) to have
fully woke up to Handel or anyone. “I suppose I have heard it and did
not pay much attention to it,” she said; “it was singing it. One does
not understand at first--till suddenly one hears one’s self, and you
say, ‘What is this that is speaking; what is this? it cannot be _me_!’”
“I think I understand--a little,” said Rollo doubtfully; “though it is
simply _you_ that makes a something quite familiar, a piece of music we
have all heard a hundred times, become a new revelation to us all in a
moment. I am going away, Miss Despard, and it may be some time before I
return. Would you do me such a great favour--which I have no right to
ask--as to sing me something now before I go?”
But Lottie would not sing. She said, “Oh no, no,” with a half terror
which he did not understand, and which she did not understand herself.
The tone was one which forbade the repetition of the request. He begged
her pardon anxiously, and there was a little languid conversation about
other subjects, and then he rose. He put out his hand again, looking
into her eyes, which she raised shyly, almost for the first time. Rollo
had a way of looking into the eyes of women to whom he wished to make
himself agreeable. It is sometimes very impertinent, and always daring,
but, especially when the woman’s imagination is on the side of the
gazer, it is very efficacious. Lottie was entirely inexperienced, and
she trembled under this look, but felt it penetrate to her very heart.
“Till we meet again,” he said, with a smile, holding her hand for that
necessary moment while he said his good-by. “It will not be very long;
and I hope that you will be kind to me, Miss Despard, and let me hear
you----”
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