England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
“Good-by,” said Lottie. She could not bear it any longer. She blamed
herself afterwards for being rude, as she sat down and went over the
incident again and again. She seemed to herself to have dismissed him
quite rudely, pulling her hand away, cutting short what he was saying.
But Rollo, for his part, did not feel that it was rude. He went down the
narrow stairs with his heart beating a little quicker than usual, and a
sense that here was something quite fresh and novel, something not like
the little flirtations with which he was so familiar, and which amused
him a great deal in general. This he had just touched, floated over with
his usual easy sentiment, was something quite out of the common. It
startled him with the throb in it. He went away quite thoughtful, his
heart in a most unusual commotion, and forgot until he was miles away
from St. Michael’s that Lottie Despard was to be the English prima
donna, who was to make his fortune, if properly managed. “Ah, to be
sure, that was it!” he said to himself suddenly in the railway carriage,
as he was going to town. He really had forgotten what it was that took
him to town at this unsuitable moment of the year.
The rest of the morning glided dreamily away after an incident like
this; and it was not till late in the afternoon that Lottie suddenly
awoke to the necessity of making an effort, and shaking off the empire
of dreams: and this was how she became convinced of the necessity for
doing so. She had been sitting, as on the former occasion, with a basket
of mending by her when Rollo came in. She had all the clothes of the
household to keep in order, and naturally they were not done in one
day. After Mr. Ridsdale was gone, she took up her work languidly,
keeping it on her knee while she went over all that had happened, again
and again, as has been recorded. When, at last startled by a sound
outside, she began to work in earnest, then and there a revelation of a
character totally distinct from that made by Handel burst upon her. It
was not a revelation of the same kind, but it was very startling. Lottie
found--_that she had not yet finished the hole in the sock which she had
begun to mend before Mr. Ridsdale’s first visit_! She was still in the
middle of that one hole. She remembered exactly where she stuck her
needle, in the middle of a woolly hillock, as she heard him coming
upstairs; and there it was still, in precisely the same place. This
discovery made her heart jump almost as much as Mr. Ridsdale’s visit had
done. What an evidence of wicked idling, of the most foolish dreaming
and unprofitable thought was in it! Lottie blushed, though she was
alone, to the roots of her hair, and seizing the sock with an
impassioned glow of energy, never took breath till the stern evidence of
that hole was done away with. And then she could not give herself any
rest. She felt her dreams floating about her with folded pinions, ready
to descend upon her and envelope her in their shadow if she gave them
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