England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
Miss Despard? Lottie? The Chevaliers, and
their wives and daughters, could not believe their eyes.
Lottie held her head as high as usual when she came back. It no longer
drooped with diffidence and delight. Once more she had come down with a
jar into the realms of reality from those of hope. She was not received
with open arms in that higher celestial world. Miss Augusta Huntington
said, “How do you do, Miss Despard?” very sweetly, but Lady Caroline
only bowed with her eyelids--a new mode of salutation which Lottie did
not understand--and kept aloof; and no one else said anything to Lottie,
except about the music. They gave her a cup of tea when all was over,
but Lottie had to drink it in silence, while the others laughed and
chatted. She was not of them, though they had brought her among them for
the sake of her voice. “Are you going, Miss Despard?” said the Dean’s
daughter, putting on the same sweet smile. “We are so much obliged to
you for coming. The next practice is next Tuesday. Will you come as
early as possible, please?” It was on Lottie’s lips to say “No”--to tell
them that she was a lady too, a better gentlewoman than they were, since
she would not have treated any stranger so. But she was fortunately too
shy to say anything, and made her exit hastily, and not so gracefully as
the others, who were at home. But she would not allow, even to herself,
that she had come down again in that painful tussle with reality, which
is so much different from dreams. She kept very quiet and said nothing,
which seemed the wisest way. And as she walked home with a much more
stately gravity than was her wont--a state put on to console herself for
humiliation and disappointment, and to vindicate, so to speak, her own
dignity to herself, but which the lookers-on gave a very different
interpretation of--Mrs. O’Shaughnessy, nodding and smiling, and in a
state of great excitement, threw up the window and called to her, as she
was going past. “Come up, come up, and tell me all about it,” the old
lady said, so audibly that some of the ladies and gentlemen who had been
in the Deanery turned round to look, and smiled at each other, making
Lottie furious. As she could not stand there and explain before all the
world, Lottie obeyed the call, and rushing upstairs to the kind old
Irishwoman’s little bit of a drawing-room, appeared, crimson with shame
and wrath at the door.
“How could you call out so loud and make them laugh?” she said, with a
strong inclination to burst into hot tears.
“Laugh, was it? and sure I’m ready to laugh too. To see you and his
Reverence the Dean, Miss Lottie--no less would serve you!--arm in arm
like a pair of young----”
“We were not arm in arm,” said Lottie, stamping her foot. Then she had
the sense to perceive that the wicked old Irishwoman would but laugh the
more at her petulance. She put her music on the table with a recovery of
her dignified manners, and sat down.
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