England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
What did he say? Lottie remembered most of the words for years and
years. When she heard the sound of them again in other conversations, in
sentences that had no relation to her, from other people, and even
addressed to other people, she would hold her breath. Foolish girl! they
were well-worn words, such as perhaps every woman possessing such a
gift, or even a much smaller gift than Lottie’s, has heard to weariness;
but the most common approbation, which afterwards becomes the mere
accompaniment and petty murmur of existence, one time in one’s life is
divine--as he told her her voice was, as he let her infer she too was,
and everything about her. Lottie was not used to anything like flattery.
Even in the best of circumstances, fathers and brothers are seldom
enthusiastic; and kind Mrs. O’Shaughnessy, though she had given her
countenance to Rowley’s lessons, did not in the least conceal that she
was bored by them; and the tenor was a great deal too much occupied with
his own voice, and the compliments that had been paid to him, to leave
him much time for complimenting his pupil. It was true that the Signor’s
wish to teach her was of itself the essence of flattery; but he never
had given her any credit for her singing, and always had seen the faults
of it. So that it was Rollo who had first revealed to her that heaven of
praise which is so doubly sweet to the neophyte when it is supposed to
be not her excellence, but his love, which inspires it. Lottie had no
defence against the enthusiasm, the admiration, the rhapsodies of her
companion. If they were excessive, that was not because he was failing
in truth, but only abounding in love. So she thought. The very
atmosphere around her turned into happiness. Her eyes were dazzled with
it. She could not look at him nor lift her face except in momentary
sudden glances, so much was the air full of this suffused, subdued, but
penetrating glory. And, strangely enough, though he did not feel half so
much as she supposed him to feel, Rollo himself was moved by this
something in the air which rayed out from her exquisite dawn of bliss
and of love. He said naturally a great deal more than he intended--and,
what was more wonderful, he felt a great deal more than he could have
supposed possible--and without the least purpose or thought, dropped
moment by moment deeper and deeper into that curious kind of rapture
which is tolerably expressed by the phrase, falling in love. Reason had
nothing to do with it, nor intention; and he had not come here driven
by a passion which was more strong than he was, as Lottie thought. But,
nevertheless, whether it was the magnetic influence of that sentiment in
her which he had called forth without knowing it, and which now touched
him with sympathetic life: or the more commonplace result of her beauty,
and of their close propinquity, and her loneliness, and the generous
impulse of protection and kindness that was in him: certain it is that
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