England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
For when Lottie came in, she found some one before her in the
drawing-room, a tall, very thin man, with stooping shoulders, who stood
by the corner of the mantelpiece, on which there were candles, holding a
book very close to his eyes. When Lottie went in, with her heart in her
mouth, he turned round, thinking that the opening of the door meant the
coming of the ladies. The entrance, instead, of the one young figure,
white and slender, and of Lottie’s eyes encountering him, full of fright
and anxiety, yet with courage in them--the look that was intended for
Lady Caroline, and which was half a prayer, “Be kind to me!” as well as
perhaps the tenth part of a defiance--made a great impression upon the
solitary inmate of the room. He was as much afraid of what he thought a
beautiful young lady, as Lottie was of the mistress of the house.
After this first moment, however, when she perceived that there was
nobody alarming, only a gentleman (an _old_ gentleman, Lottie
contemptuously, or rather carelessly concluded, though he was not more
in reality than about five-and-thirty), she regained her composure, and
her heart went back to its natural place. Lottie knew very well who the
gentleman was, though he did not know her. It was Mr. Ashford, one of
the minor canons, a very shy and scholarly person, rather out of his
element in a community which did not pretend to much scholarship or any
special devotion to books. Perhaps he was the only man in St. Michael’s
whom Lottie had ever really desired to make acquaintance with on his own
account; but indeed it was scarcely on his own account, but on account
of Law, about whom she was always so anxious. Mr. Ashford took pupils,
with whom he was said to be very successful. He lived for his pupils,
people said, and thought of nothing else but of how to get them into
shape and push them on. It had been Lottie’s dream ever since she came
to St. Michael’s to get Law under Mr. Ashford’s care; and after she had
recovered the shock of getting into the room, and the mingled thrill of
relief and impatience at finding that there was nobody there as yet to
be afraid of, Lottie, whose heart always rose to any emergency, began to
speculate how she could make friends with Mr. Ashford. She was not
afraid of him: he was short-sighted, and he was awkward and shy, and a
great deal more embarrassed by her look than she was by his. And he was
being badly used--so she thought. Why was not he asked to dinner like
the others? Mr. Ashford did not himself feel the grievance, but Lottie
felt it for him. She ranged herself instantly, instinctively, by his
side. They were the two who were being condescended to, being taken
notice of--they were the natural opponents consequently of the fine
people, the people who condescended and patronised. Mr. Ashford, on his
side, stood and looked at her, and did not know what to do. He did not
know who she was. She was a beautiful young lady, and he knew he had
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