England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
He knew very well where he
was going. No vagueness on that point was in his mind; and he did not
care a brass farthing for the landscape; but he paused at the head of
the Steps and looked about, just as a child will pause before eating his
cake, a pause of anticipation and spiritual enjoyment of the dainty
before it goes to his lips. Then he ran down the Steps three at a time,
skimming down the long flights, turning the corners like a bird. To take
care of his sister had been duty, but Law was about his own business
now.
What was Law’s business? In all St. Michael’s there was not a more idle
boy. He was over eighteen, and he did nothing. Vague hopes that he would
get some appointment--that something would turn up for him--that he
would suddenly awake and find himself in an office somehow, doing
something and making money--had been in his own mind and that of his
family all his life. Law had no objection. Had some one taken him and
set him down at once in any office, it was quite possible that he might
have done the best he could in his place, and succeeded as well as most
men; but in the meantime there were a great many preliminaries to go
through, for which Law had never been required or encouraged to fit
himself. In these days of examination, when the pitifullest little bit
of an office builds up those prickly thorns, those red-hot ploughshares
before its door, how was he to get into any office without education? He
had spent all his earlier years, as has been seen, in eluding school as
cleverly as possible, and doing as little as he could of his lessons;
and now here he was on the verge of manhood, with nothing to do and no
great wish to do anything;--a great, straight, powerful young fellow,
without any absolute aim or tendency to evil, but good for nothing, not
capable of anything, with neither purpose nor object in his life. He
could row very well when anyone would give him an oar. He was not amiss
at cricket when anyone asked him to play. He could walk with any man,
and had won a race or two, and was quite capable of competing for a high
jump, or for throwing a cricket-ball, or any of those useful
accomplishments; but as for anything else he was not capable. He hated
books with that sincere and earnest hatred which seems possible only to
those who know books to be the preliminary of everything--a peculiarity
of this examining age. Never before surely was such a candid and
thorough detestation of the tools of knowledge possible. Law knew that
no door could possibly open to him without them, and therefore he hated
and despised them, illogically no doubt, but very cordially all the
same; and so went drifting along upon the stream, not asking what was to
become of him, never thinking much of the subject, though he suffered
greatly from want of pocket-money, and would gladly have made some
exertion from time to time to obtain that, had he known what to do.
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