Families -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- History -- 19th century -- Fiction
Chalender, perhaps remembering too, shivered, rose, and went to the
fireplace, thrusting his hands out, and washing them in the warm air as
he mumbled:
“Many’s the cold night I’ve stood by the camp fire and tried to get my
hands warm. That’s the only sign of my age, Davie: it’s hard to keep my
hands warm. They’re half frozen all the time.”
He did not note that RoBards made no comment. He was thinking of that
circle in Dante’s Inferno where the damned lie imbedded in ice. But
Chalender glanced down at the hearthstone and asked:
“Isn’t that the marble I brought over from Sing Sing when I was an
engineer on the aqueduct? Why, I believe it is! There was a poem I
started to write. I have always been a poet at heart, Davie, plucking
the lyre with hands all thumbs, trying to make life rhyme and run to
meter. But I had no gift of words.
“I spent half a night and fifteen miles trying to write a poem to go
with that slab. It ran something like—like—ah, I have it!—
“Marble, marble, I could never mould you
To the beauteous image of my love,
So keep the blissful secret that I told you
Tell it only to—
“And there I stuck and couldn’t get on to save me.”
He bent his arm along the mantel and laid his forehead on it as he said
with an unusual absence of flippancy:
“I loved her, Davie. You stole her from me when I was dying. You ran
away with her to this place. When I called for her and they told me
she had married you, my heart died. I got well. My body got well. But
my soul was always sick. I laughed and pretended, flirted and reveled,
but I never loved anybody else—only Patty—always only Patty.
“And she—when she was afraid of life or death, she ran to you; but when
she wasn’t afraid of life——”
As he struck his chest and opened his mouth to proceed, RoBards yelled:
“You say it and I’ll kill you!”
“You—kill anybody?” Chalender sneered, and RoBards sneered again:
“Oh, I’ve killed one or two in my day.”
Chalender apparently did not hear this mad brag, for he was bragging on
his own account:
“You couldn’t kill me; nor could ten men like you. Thousands have tried
to kill me. For four years the Rebels kept shooting at me and whacking
at me with their sabers, jabbing with their bayonets and searching for
me with grape and canister, but I didn’t die. It seems I shall never
die. Maybe that’s because I’ve never quite lived. I loved Patty and you
got her. You oughtn’t to be hurt to learn that another man loved your
love. But if it makes you mad to hear me say it, maybe you could kill
me. Then my blood would run out on this marble that I brought to her
when she was young and pretty. Oh, but she was pretty, a pretty thing,
a sweet thing. What a damned, ugly world, to let a pretty thing like
Patty Jessamine suffer and die!
“Oh, Davie, Davie, what a darling she was, in what a dirty world!”
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