But when the door had shut behind the retreating figure of the Mercury
in plush, Walter Joyce threw down his pen and took up the letter, and
pressed it to his lips. Then he opened it, not eagerly indeed, but
with a bright light in his eyes, and a happy smile upon his lips. And
then he read it.
He started at the first line, astonished at the cold tone in which
Marian addressed him, but after that he read the letter straight
through, without evincing any outward sign of emotion. When he had
finished it he paused, and shook his head quickly, as one who has
received some stunning blow, and passed his hand rapidly across his
brow, then set to work to read the letter again. He had been through
it hurriedly before, but this time he read every word, then he pushed
the paper from him, and flung himself forward on the desk, burying his
face in his hands. Thus he remained during some ten minutes; when he
raised himself, his face was very white save round the eyes, where the
skin was flushed and strained, and his hands trembled very much. He
reeled, too, a little when he first stood up, but he soon conquered
that, and began silently pacing the room to and fro. Some time
afterwards, when asked to explain what he had felt at that crisis in
his life, Joyce declared he could not tell. Not anger against Marian,
certainly, no vindictive rage against her who had treated him so
basely. His life was spoiled, he felt that; it had never been very
brilliant, or very much worth having, but the one ray which had
illumined it had been suddenly extinguished, and the future was in
utter darkness. He was in the condition of a man who has been stunned,
or has fainted, and to whom the recollection of the events immediately
engrossing his attention when, as it were, he was last in life, came
but slowly. He had but a confused idea of the contents of Marian's
letter. Its general tenor of course he knew, but he had to think over
the details. The letter was there, lying before him on the desk where
he had thrown it, but he seemed to have an odd but invincible
repugnance to reading it again. After a somewhat laborious process of
thought he remembered it all. She was going to be married to Mr.
Creswell--that was it. She could not face a life of poverty, she said;
the comforts and luxuries which she had enjoyed for the last few
months had become necessary to her happiness, and she had chosen
between him and them. She did not pretend to care for the man she was
about to marry; she merely intended to make use of him as the means to
an end. Poor Marian! that was a bad state for her to be in--poor
Marian! She had jilted him, but she had sacrificed herself: he did not
know which was the more forlorn out-look.
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