The intention, one of the first which Marian Creswell had expressed
after her marriage, and one which had so incensed Gertrude, of
converting the girls' music-room into a boudoir, had long since been
carried out. Almost immediately after he had returned from his wedding
trip, Mr. Creswell had sent to London for decorators and upholsterers.
An army of foreign artists, much given to beard and pantomimical
gesture, to humming scraps of operas over their work, and to furtively
smoking cigarettes in the shrubberies whenever they could evade the
stern eye of the overseer, had arrived upon the scene; and when they
returned to town they left the music-room, which had been a bleak,
gaunt, cheerless apartment enough, a miracle of brightness and
cosiness, elegance and comfort. Everybody was astonished at the
change, and the young ladies themselves were compelled to confess that
the boudoir, as it then appeared, was perfectly charming, and that
really, perhaps, after all, Mrs. Creswell might have been actuated,
apart from mere malevolence and spite, by some sense and appreciation
of the capabilities of the room in the selection she had made. There
was a good deal of actual truth in this judgment; Marian had
determined to take the earliest opportunity of asserting herself
against the girls and letting them know the superiority of her
position; she had also intended, if ever she were able, to gratify
the wish to have a room of her own, where she might be absolute
mistress, surrounded by her books, pictures, and other belongings; and
by the acquisition of the music-room she was able to accomplish both
these intentions. Moreover, the windows of the music-room looked out
towards Helmingham. Half-way towards the dim distance stood the old
schoolhouse, where she had been born, where all her childhood had
been spent, and where she had been comparatively innocent and
unworldly; for though the worship of wealth had probably been innate
in her, and had grown with her growth and strengthened with her
strength, she had not then sacrificed others to her own avarice, nor
forfeited her self-respect for the gratification of her overwhelming
passion. In a person differently constituted, the constant
contemplation of such views might have had an irritating or a
depressing effect, but Marian's strength of mind rendered her
independent of any such feeling. She never thought with regret of the
step she had taken; she never had the remotest twinge of conscience as
to the manner in which she had behaved to Walter Joyce; she was
frequently in the habit of passing all the circumstances in review in
her mind, and invariably came to the conclusion that she had acted
wisely, and that, were she placed in a similar position again, she
should do exactly the same. No; she was able to think over all the
passages of her first and only love--that love which she bad
deliberately cast from the pedestal of her heart, and trampled under
foot--without an extra pulsation of excitement or regret.
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