These reflections and others of similar import formed a constant
subject for Marian's mental exercitation, and invariably left her a
prey to discontent and something very like remorse. The glamour of
money-possession had faded away; she had grown accustomed to all it
had brought her, and was keenly alive to what it had not brought her,
and, what she had expected of it--pleasant society, agreeable friends,
elevated position. In her own heart she felt herself undervaluing the
power of great riches, and thinking how much better was it to have a
modest competence sufficient for one's wants, sufficient to keep one
from exposure to the shifts and pinches of such poverty as she had
known in her early life, when combined with a position in life which
gave one the chance of holding one's own amongst agreeable people,
rather than to be the Croesus gaped at by wondering yokels, or capped
to by favour-seeking tenants. A few months before, such thoughts would
have been esteemed almost blasphemous by Marian; but she held them
now, and felt half inclined to resent on her husband his ignorant and
passive share in the arrangement which had substituted him for Walter
Joyce.
That was the worst of all. After Maude and Gertrude Creswell left
Woolgreaves, an unseen but constantly present inmate was added to
the household, who sat between husband and wife, and whispered into
their ears alternately. His name was Doubt, and to Mr. Creswell he
said--"What has become of all those fine resolutions which you made on
your brother Tom's death?--resolutions about taking his children under
your roof, and never losing sight of them until they left as happy
brides? Where are they now? Those resolutions have been broken, have
they not? The girls, Tom's daughters--orphan daughters, mind--have
been sent away from what you had taught them to look upon as their
home--sent away on some trivial excuse of temper--and where are
they now? You don't know!--you, the uncle, the self-constituted
guardian--positively don't know where they are! You have had the
address given you, of course, but you cannot imagine the place, for
you have never seen it; you cannot picture to yourself the lady with
whom they are said to be staying, for you never saw her, and, until
your wife explained who she was, you had scarcely even heard of her.
Your wife! Ah! that is a pleasant subject! You've found her all that
you expected, have you not? So clever, clear-headed, bright, and,
withal, so docile and obedient? Yet she it was who quarrelled with
your nieces, and told you that either she or they must leave your
house. She it was who saw them depart with delight, and who never
bated one jot of her satisfaction when she noticed, as she cannot have
failed to notice, your emotion and regret. Look back into the past,
man--think of the woman who was your trusted helpmate in the old days
of your poverty and struggle!--think of her big heart, her indomitable
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