"Listen to me, dear," she said, with her clear eyes fixed on her
mother's face, and her voice, though softened to a tone of the utmost
tenderness, firm and decided. "You must never forget that I know
exactly what and how much you feel, and that I share it all" (there
was a forlornness in the girl's face which bore ample testimony to the
truth of what she said) "when I tell you, in my practical way, what we
must do. You remember, once, then, you spoke to me about the
Creswells, and I made light of them and their importance and
influence. I would not admit it; I did not understand it. I had not
fully thought about it then; but I admit it now. I understand it now,
and it is my turn to tell you, my dearest mother, that we must be
civil to them; we must take, or seem to take, their offers of
kindness, of protection, of intimacy, as they are made. We cannot
afford to do otherwise, and they are just the sort of people to be
offended with us irreparably, if we did not allow them to extend their
hospitality to us. It is rather officious, rather ostentatious; it has
all the bitterness of making us remember more keenly what they _might_
have done for us, but it _is_ hospitality, and we need it; it _is_ the
promise of further services which we shall require urgently. You must
rouse yourself, mother; this must be your share of helpfulness to me
in the burden of our life. And, after all, what does it matter? What
real difference does it make? My father is as much present to you and
to me in one place as in another. Nothing can alter, or modify, or
soften; nothing can deepen or embitter that truth. Come with me--the
effort will repay itself."
Mrs. Ashurst had begun to look more resolved, before her daughter, who
had spoken with more than her usual earnestness and decision, had come
to an end of her argument. She put her arm round the girl's neck, and
gave her a timid squeeze, and then half rose, as though she were ready
to go with her, anywhere she chose, that very minute. Then Marian,
without asking another word on the subject, busied herself about her
mother's dress, arranging the widow's heavy sombre drapery with a deft
hand, and talking about the weather, the pleasantness of their
projected walk, and the daily dole of Helmingham gossip. Marian cared
little for gossip of any kind herself, but it was a godsend to her
sometimes, when she had particular reasons for not talking to her
mother of the things that were in her mind, and did not find it easy
to invent other things to talk to her about.
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