Country life -- England -- Fiction; England -- Social conditions -- 19th century -- Fiction; Rural poor -- England -- Fiction
'Listen to me, Mr. Smith. We must part to-day, and for ever. This
intimacy has gone on--too long, I am afraid, for your happiness.
And now, like all pleasant things in this miserable world, it must
cease. I cannot tell you why; but you will trust me. I thank you
for it--I thank God for it. I have learnt things from it which I
shall never forget. I have learnt, at least from it, to esteem and
honour you. You have vast powers. Nothing, nothing, I believe, is
too high for you to attempt and succeed. But we must part; and now,
God be with you. Oh, that you would but believe that these glorious
talents are His loan! That you would but be a true and loyal knight
to him who said--"Learn of me, for I am meek and lowly of heart, and
ye shall find rest unto your souls!"--Ay,' she went on, more and
more passionately, for she felt that not she, but One mightier than
herself was speaking through her, 'then you might be great indeed.
Then I might watch your name from afar, rising higher and higher
daily in the ranks of God's own heroes. I see it--and you have
taught me to see it--that you are meant for a faith nobler and
deeper than all doctrines and systems can give. You must become the
philosopher, who can discover new truths--the artist who can embody
them in new forms, while poor I--And that is another reason why we
should part.--Hush! hear me out. I must not be a clog, to drag you
down in your course. Take this, and farewell; and remember that you
once had a friend called Argemone.'
She put into his hands a little Bible. He took it, and laid it down
on the table.
For a minute he stood silent and rooted to the spot.
Disappointment, shame, rage, hatred, all boiled up madly within him.
The bitterest insults rose to his lips--'Flirt, cold-hearted pedant,
fanatic!' but they sank again unspoken, as he looked into the
celestial azure of those eyes, calm and pure as a soft evening sky.
A mighty struggle between good and evil shook his heart to the
roots; and, for the first time in his life, his soul breathed out
one real prayer, that God would help him now or never to play the
man. And in a moment the darkness passed; a new spirit called out
all the latent strength within him; and gently and proudly he
answered her,--
'Yes, I will go. I have had mad dreams, conceited and insolent, and
have met with my deserts. Brute and fool as I am, I have aspired
even to you! And I have gained, in the sunshine of your
condescension, strength and purity.--Is not that enough for me? And
now I will show you that I love you--by obeying you. You tell me to
depart--I go for ever.'
He turned away. Why did she almost spring after him?
'Lancelot! one word! Do not misunderstand me, as I know you will.
You will think me so cold, heartless, fickle.--Oh, you do not know--
you never can know--how much I, too, have felt!'
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