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At last, after Lancelot had waited long in vain, came his cousin's
answer to the letter which I gave in my second chapter.
'You are not fair to me, good cousin . . . but I have given up
expecting fairness from Protestants. I do not say that the front
and the back of my head have different makers, any more than that
doves and vipers have . . . and yet I kill the viper when I meet him
. . . and so do you. . . . And yet, are we not taught that our
animal nature is throughout equally viperous? . . . The Catholic
Church, at least, so teaches. . . . She believes in the corruption
of human nature. She believes in the literal meaning of Scripture.
She has no wish to paraphrase away St. Paul's awful words, that "in
his flesh dwelleth no good thing," by the unscientific euphemisms of
"fallen nature" or "corrupt humanity." The boasted discovery of
phrenologists, that thought, feeling, and passion reside in this
material brain and nerves of ours, has ages ago been anticipated by
her simple faith in the letter of Scripture; a faith which puts to
shame the irreverent vagueness and fantastic private interpretations
of those who make an idol of that very letter which they dare not
take literally, because it makes against their self-willed theories.
. .
'And so you call me douce and meek? . . . You should remember what
I once was, Lancelot . . . I, at least, have not forgotten . . . I
have not forgotten how that very animal nature, on the possession of
which you seem to pride yourself, was in me only the parent of
remorse., . . I know it too well not to hate and fear it. Why do
you reproach me, if I try to abjure it, and cast away the burden
which I am too weak to bear? I am weak--Would you have me say that
I am strong? Would you have me try to be a Prometheus, while I am
longing to be once more an infant on a mother's breast? Let me
alone . . . I am a weary child, who knows nothing, can do nothing,
except lose its way in arguings and reasonings, and "find no end, in
wandering mazes lost." Will you reproach me, because when I see a
soft cradle lying open for me . . . with a Virgin Mother's face
smiling down all woman's love about it . . . I long to crawl into
it, and sleep awhile? I want loving, indulgent sympathy . . . I
want detailed, explicit guidance . . . Have you, then, found so
much of them in our former creed, that you forbid me to go to seek
them elsewhere, in the Church which not only professes them as an
organised system, but practises them . . . as you would find in your
first half-hour's talk with one of Her priests . . . true priests .
. . who know the heart of man, and pity, and console, and bear for
their flock the burdens which they cannot bear themselves? You ask
me who will teach a fast young man? . . . I answer, the Jesuit. Ay,
start and sneer, at that delicate woman-like tenderness, that subtle
instinctive sympathy, which you have never felt . . . which is as
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