Then, as womanhood arrived, barely kissed fain consciousness, in one
stolen rapport, just an unguarded moment, the godlight once shone in,
had seized upon her, made it seem as if there was a heaven, as if God
himself had touched her very soul and the blessed come to earth--a
little thing as insignificant as any worm or bird or animal, only a fox,
had come between her and what she might have had for the taking; and
that, too, without disturbing as she believed her father's plans in the
least or suffering the pain of being left in the world to do penance for
a thing that she knew to be wholly beyond the reach or concern of her
own insignificant little self.
Yodogima had been cast out, degraded, and left to makeshift, but not
defeated. In that one moment of utter helplessness she had resolved to
meet the world as found, and to make of life what God intended--an
abiding faith in that we know and not a conjured reach toward something
fancied.
Ieyasu had promised her protection--his love he had given her--and she
believed him capable and true; that she had renounced Katsutoya and
accepted Ieyasu rightly, though against every obligation that she knew
developments had proven beyond peradventure. Her father had anticipated
an impossibility, asked her to stultify every moral consideration on her
part to gratify an ambition of his, that proved at the first test to be
utterly groundless and without the shadow of a compensating hope.
Accident or will had denied her the privilege of an explanation; fate
alone, for all she knew, had interposed to lay bare the secret of her
heart at an inopportune moment, and a fancied code had sought to crush
her beneath its ruthless dictum at a time when the very heart-chords of
repentance called loudest for pleasing atonement.
It seemed as if the same god who had torn her therefrom must save her
unto himself; and her heart bled for him alone.
"Ieyasu," cried she, more confident than ever.
Her voice seemed to die close underneath the angry elements; but
quickly--all this had crowded upon her instantly--strong arms, others
than she had allowed, gathered her up, together with her two sisters,
younger than she, and placing them in chairs made their way through the
charred, falling remnants of all that had been so dear to her, toward
the woodland, not far distant, to the southward.
The glare of the lights and the lamentations of the populace startled
her, and she would have turned if only in some small way to their
relief, but the bettos (carriers) ran on, heeding neither her pleadings
nor their own safety so long as they might serve--their employer,
Sakuma, who led the way.
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