You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!) — John Shaqi
You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!)Boylesve, René
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You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!)
Boylesve, René
World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
"La Villaumer insists," said Simone, "that in her case it is simply a
lack of imagination, and that no one should blame her. He says, you
understand, that she is unable to bring before herself, as you do, for
example, a vision of her husband. If she had been capable of bearing
about with her a persistent picture of him, she would have been
faithful, if it were only to a picture; but she has no imagination; it
is necessary to her that her mind should rest upon an object. It is one
explanation--probably a paradox."
At that moment they heard in the neighboring apartment the playing of an
excellent pianist which had formerly lulled the reveries of Odette when
she was waiting for Jean. That neighboring apartment, into which the
Jacquelins had never set foot, was separated from theirs only by a thin
partition and a door. The music had often fretted Jean, but when Odette
was alone she had loved to hear it.
"Listen!" said Odette. "Oh, it is more than eighteen months since I have
heard music!"
"That is so," said Simone; "in Paris one finds a little of everything
that one used to love; it is that that hurts."
"What is she playing?" asked Simone after a moment.
It was a revery; two lovers who are seeking one another, groping in the
darkness of a garden on a lovely summer night; you hear their hesitating
footsteps, you suspect their vexed and feverish gestures, their eager
lips that call one another without imprudently pronouncing a name;
though their footsteps creak upon the gravel and a fountain drops its
slow pearls into the basin. Suddenly the music of a waltz attracts them
separately to the lighted house, and they exchange kisses on the steps
of the entrance, before being swallowed up in the intoxicating motion.
"Oh!" exclaimed Odette, thrilled, "do you remember, do you remember?"
"What?" asked Simone.
"Why, everything! Everything that happened _before_, before this end of
the world that never ends!"
Odette, overcome by the harmonious reminder of the waltz of a possible
festival, of the joy of living, of being pretty, young, beloved, could
only repeat:
"I haven't heard ... anything ... for more than eighteen months, Simone!
Do you remember that evening at Mme. Sormellier's, at Bellevue, where
both our husbands were so beautiful?"
"And we, too, Odette! We shall be old after the war. We shall have had
hardly five or six years of youth. I will confess to you that sometimes
I juggle with fate. I go to see Clotilde, who refuses to permit herself
to be touched by events. She says: 'I can do nothing about it; I am good
for nothing. Let the world let me alone as I let it alone! Till my last
hour I will stay with my flowers, my books, and my music.'"
"Ah! Clotilde, yes; do you know, I had forgotten her!"
"Everybody is forgetting her, and she forgets everybody. Her husband is
at Great Headquarters; he often comes. She is a privileged person, and
she says: 'Why should I not accept all the good that is offered me?'"
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