You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!)Boylesve, René
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You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!)
Boylesve, René
World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
As the blind man made a motion to relinquish her hand, Odette said:
"_Au revoir_, messieurs"; and left them. The blind man remained
motionless, either because he could not think it possible that she
should go, or because he waited for his friend, who hesitated to urge
him to leave the place.
*
* *
Odette did not go up to Clotilde, even at the risk of permitting her
lack of protestation to be accepted as acquiescence. She felt herself
incapable of talking with any one whose heart was not overflowing. She
did not disdain the sight of her flowers, her preoccupation with
personal pleasures; she would despise nothing, these were tastes which
inspired her rather with pity. Toward those who have greatly suffered it
was not pity that she felt, but _attraction_; an irresistible
attraction.
*
* *
She was soon joined by one who greeted her. It was La Villaumer,
returning from a visit to a sick man in the Rue Bizet. He turned toward
the two men who were going away and asked Odette:
"Then it is true? They told me----"
"Only one single thing is true," said Odette, "and that is that they
told you."
"There is only one single thing true," replied La Villaumer, "and that
is that you feel as imperative a need to do good, as most poor mortals
of good being done to them. If I had not seen--I should say to you, as
others will say to you: 'My friend, take care, keep yourself in hand!'
But I have just seen the face of this man who is deprived of light, and
who perhaps feels the lack of you more than of the beauty of the light,
and I tremble-- It seems to me that I see you, my poor dear friend,
reaching the last stage of an evolution which I have watched as if it
had been my own. Many will look upon this acme of your self-sacrifice as
an immolation. But I recall to mind the words that I have so often
spoken to myself: 'You no longer Count!' The individual is dead--
Provisionally, but for a time which we cannot estimate, the individual
is dead-- In fact, you yourself have perceived that you no longer have
any rights, not even the right to mourn your unending grief. The moment
has come to mourn more largely, more grandly, with the only grief that
can save a soul like yours. The only hope of a resurrection lies in
giving oneself to the common need, and losing oneself in it with love."
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