Young Mr. Barter's Repentance: From "Schwartz" by David Christie MurrayMurray, David Christie
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Young Mr. Barter's Repentance: From "Schwartz" by David Christie Murray
Murray, David Christie
Fiction
‘It was the only thing to be done--the only thing possible. It was----’
he paused for a second, and then went on resolutely--‘it was my father’s
act by which you suffered. I should have been a scoundrel if I had done
otherwise.’
‘And are you to do all? and am I to do nothing? It is selfish to keep
all the generosity to yourself.’
He laughed as if he found this female paradox a pleasant fancy, but she
was not to be put off so.
‘If the subject pains you, as I know it does, dear, please understand
why I speak of it I don’t want you to think I take your sacrifice as you
pretend to take it. It isn’t a matter of course, as you pretend it is;
and you may say what you like, Phil, but it isn’t a thing that everybody
would have done. Don’t grudge me my gratitude; you did it for the love
of me.’
‘I didn’t do it for the love of you,’ said Phil, laughing tenderly; ‘how
often am I to tell you that, you little mountain of obstinacy? I did it
because it was the right thing. I don’t say, mind you, that it wasn’t
easier to do it for you than it might have been for somebody I didn’t
know or care for; but that--as you will see quite clearly if you’ll
bring your naturally logical mind to bear upon it--makes the thing so
much the less creditable, provided there was any credit due to it at
all.’
The loving feminine scorn of this masculine process of reasoning was
expressed in a single glance, and was delightful to see.
‘It only means waiting a little longer before I claim you.’
The girl would fain have asked, ‘Why should you wait when I have enough
for both by your gift? What does it matter which of us it is who has the
money--you or I?’ But this question went unspoken, for obvious reasons.
A woman is tongue-tied by the countless conventionalities of education.
She must often let her thoughts lie silent in her heart, though she
burns to express them, and find what answer she can to questions she
dare not offer. Philip had repaired her loss by beggaring himself. That
was noble. But now he persisted in deferring their marriage, and had
buried himself in that lofty sarcophagus in Gable Inn, resolved only to
claim her, though she was all his own already, when he had reinstated
his fortunes by his labour. That was noble also, perhaps, but in her
own heart she thought it a trifle foolish--say Quixotic, not to be too
severe. She would rather have seen his ardour find a more commonplace
expression. She had a general sort of belief that whatever Philip did
was bound to be right, and yet this actual experience rather jarred with
that assumption.
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