Mary was sobbing, scarcely able to speak. “Oh, tell them to go back
again--tell them to go back,” she cried. There was no way of satisfying
her but this: the carriage turned slowly round, rolling like a ship at
sea. The coachman was disgusted and unwilling. “What did she want now?”
he said, telegraphing with uplifted hands and eyes to the surprised
footman on Geoff’s horse. Lady Stanton was not a hard mistress like her
stepdaughters, nor fantastical and unreasonable as they were. She took
the carriage humbly when she could get it, and would consult this very
coachman’s convenience before bringing him out, which no one else
thought of doing. Nevertheless Lady Stanton had her character in the
house, and human nature required that it should be kept up. She was the
stepmother, the scapegoat. “What is she after now?” the coachman said.
She got out of the carriage herself, trembling, to aid in the search,
and the footman getting down, looked everywhere, even under the stones,
and in the roadside hedges, but no one was there. When they resumed
their way again, Mary lay back in her corner too much worn out with
excitement and emotion to be able even to speak. Geoff could not tell
whether she was glad or sorry to be brought to acknowledge that it was
more likely to be John Musgrave whom she had seen than his ghost. She
was convinced by his reasoning. Oh, yes; no doubt, she said, it must be
so. Because you saw a man unexpectedly, that was no reason for supposing
him to be dead. Oh, no--Geoff was quite right; she saw the reason of all
he said. But Mary’s head and her heart and all her being thrilled with
the shock. There was a ringing in her ears, and pulses were beating all
over, and her blood coursing through her veins. The very country, so
familiar, seemed to change its aspect. No stronger commentary could have
been on the passage of time than the sudden glimpse of the face which
she had seen just now on the roadside. But Mary did not think of that.
The lake and the rural road that ran by it, and the hills in the
distance, seemed to take again the colours of her youth. He was nothing
to her, and never had been. She had not loved him, only had “taken an
interest.” But all that was most poignant in her life came back to her,
with the knowledge that he was here. Once more it seemed to be that time
when all is vivid, when every day may be the turning-point of life--the
time that was consciously but a drift and floating on of hour by hour
when it existed, as is the present moment--but which, looking back upon
it, seemed the time of free action, of choice, of every possibility. Was
it so? Might he be met with round any corner--this man who had been
banished so long? In the face of death and danger had he come back, he
whom nobody had expected ever to come back? A strange half-question
whether everything else had come back with him, and half-certainty that
nothing for her could change, was in Mary’s mind as she lay back,
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