But in regard to the evil that we see around us, the problem is more
difficult. Though the youth of this generation hope to conquer, the
battle is still on. We have fought our way to a knowledge of things as
they are, and we must now fight our way beyond it. That first fight
was our first sense of the adventure of life. Our purpose early became
to track the world relentlessly down to its lair. We were resolute
to find out the facts, no matter how sinister and barren they proved
themselves to be. We would make no compromises with our desires,
or with those weak persons who could not endure the clear light of
reality. We were scornful in the presence of the superstitions of our
elders. We could not conceive that sufficient knowledge combined with
action would not be able to solve all our problems and make clear all
our path. As our knowledge grew, so did our courage. We pressed more
eagerly on the trail of this world of ours, purposing to capture and
tame its mysteries, and reveal it as it is, so that none could doubt
us. As we penetrated farther, however, into the cave, the path became
more and more uncertain. We discovered our prey to be far grimmer and
more dangerous than we had ever imagined. As he turned slowly at bay,
we discovered that he was not only repulsive but threatening. We were
sternly prepared to accept him just as we found him, exulting that we
should know things as they really were. We were ready for the worst,
and yet somehow not for this worst. We had not imagined him retaliating
upon us. In our first recoil, the thought flashed upon us that our
tracking him to his lair might end in his feasting on our bones.
It is somewhat thus that we feel when the full implications of the
materialism to which we have laboriously fought our way dawn upon
us, or we realize the full weight of the sodden social misery around
us. Hitherto we have been so intent on the trail that we have not
stopped to consider what it all meant. Now that we know, not only
our own salvation seems threatened, but that of all around us, even
the integrity of the world itself. In these moments of perplexity
and alarm, we lose confidence in ourselves and all our values and
interpretations. To go further seems to be to court despair. We are
ashamed to retreat, and, besides, have come too far ever to get back
into the safe plain of ignorance again. The world seems to be revealed
to us as mechanical in its workings and fortuitous in its origin, and
the warmth and light of beauty and ideals that we have known all along
to be our true life seem to be proven illusions. And the wailing of the
world comes up to us, cast off from any divine assistance, left to the
mercy of its own weak wills and puny strengths. In this fall, our world
itself seems to have lost merit, and we feel ourselves almost degraded
by being a part of it. We have suddenly been deprived of our souls; the
world seems to have beaten us in our first real battle with it.
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