Now this despair is partly the result of an excessive responsibility
that we have taken for the universe. In youth, if we are earnest and
eager, we tend to take every bit of experience that comes to us,
as either a justification or a condemnation of the world. We are
all instinctive monists at that age, and crave a complete whole. As
we unconsciously construct our philosophy of life, each fact gets
automatically recorded as confirming or denying the competency of
the world we live in. Even the first shock of disillusionment, which
banishes those dreams of a beautiful, orderly, and rational world that
had suffused childhood with their golden light, did not shatter the
conviction that there was somehow at least a Lord’s side. The sudden
closing of the account in the second shock, when the world turns on us,
shows us how mighty has been the issue at stake,--nothing less than our
faith in the universe, and, perhaps, in the last resort, of our faith
in ourselves. We see now that our breathless seriousness of youth was
all along simply a studying of our crowded experience to see whether it
was on the Lord’s side or not. And now in our doubt we are left with a
weight on our souls which is not our own, a burden which we have really
usurped.
In its adventure with evil, youth must not allow this strange,
metaphysical responsibility to depress and incapacitate it. We shall
never face life freely and bravely and worthily if we do. I may wonder,
it is true, as I look out on these peaceful fields, with the warm
sun and blue sky above me and the kindly faces of my good friends
around me, how this can be the same world that houses the millions
of poor and wretched people in their burning and huddled quarters in
the city. Can these days, in which I am free to come and go and walk
and study as I will, be the same that measure out the long hours of
drudgery to thousands of youth amid the whir of machines, and these
long restful nights of mine, the same that are for them only gasps
breaking a long monotony? It must be the same world, however, whether
we can ever reconcile ourselves to it or not. But we need plainly feel
no responsibility for what happened previously to our generation. Our
responsibility now is a collective, a social responsibility. And it is
only for the evil that society might prevent were it organized wisely
and justly. Beyond that it does not go. For the accidental evil that is
showered upon the world, we are not responsible, and we need not feel
either that the integrity of the universe is necessarily compromised by
it. It is necessary to be somewhat self-centred in considering it. We
must trust our own feelings rather than any rational proof. In spite
of everything, the world seems to us so unconquerably good, it affords
so many satisfactions, and is so rich in beauty and kindliness, that
we have a right to assume that there is a side of things that we miss
in our pessimistic contemplation of misfortune and disaster. We see
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