“Often, when the air is calm, I have thought that I hear the strains of
my father’s music; often, though long stilled in the grave, have they
waked me from the dreams of the solemn night. Methinks, ere thou comest
to me that I hear them herald thy approach. Methinks I hear them wail
and moan, when I sink back into myself on seeing thee depart. Thou art
OF that music,--its spirit, its genius. My father must have guessed
at thee and thy native regions, when the winds hushed to listen to his
tones, and the world deemed him mad! I hear where I sit, the far murmur
of the sea. Murmur on, ye blessed waters! The waves are the pulses of
the shore. They beat with the gladness of the morning wind,--so beats my
heart in the freshness and light that make up the thoughts of thee!
....
“Often in my childhood I have mused and asked for what I was born; and
my soul answered my heart and said, ‘THOU WERT BORN TO WORSHIP!’ Yes; I
know why the real world has ever seemed to me so false and cold. I know
why the world of the stage charmed and dazzled me. I know why it was so
sweet to sit apart and gaze my whole being into the distant heavens.
My nature is not formed for this life, happy though that life seem to
others. It is its very want to have ever before it some image loftier
than itself! Stranger, in what realm above, when the grave is past,
shall my soul, hour after hour, worship at the same source as thine?
....
“In the gardens of my neighbour there is a small fountain. I stood by it
this morning after sunrise. How it sprung up, with its eager spray, to
the sunbeams! And then I thought that I should see thee again this day,
and so sprung my heart to the new morning which thou bringest me from
the skies.
....
“I HAVE seen, I have LISTENED to thee again. How bold I have become! I
ran on with my childlike thoughts and stories, my recollections of the
past, as if I had known thee from an infant. Suddenly the idea of my
presumption struck me. I stopped, and timidly sought thine eyes.
“‘Well, and when you found that the nightingale refused to sing?’--
“‘Ah!’ I said, ‘what to thee this history of the heart of a child?’
“‘Viola,’ didst thou answer, with that voice, so inexpressibly calm
and earnest!--‘Viola, the darkness of a child’s heart is often but the
shadow of a star. Speak on! And thy nightingale, when they caught and
caged it, refused to sing?’
“‘And I placed the cage yonder, amidst the vine-leaves, and took up my
lute, and spoke to it on the strings; for I thought that all music was
its native language, and it would understand that I sought to comfort
it.’
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