“My dear friend,” she said lightly, “you really have a very excellent
opinion of yourself--excuse me for saying so! ‘My own passion!’ Do you
actually suppose I have a ‘passion’ for you?” And rising from her
chair, she drew up her slim supple figure to its full height and
looked at him with an amused and airy scorn. “You are totally
mistaken! No one man living can move me to love; I know all men too
well! Their natures are uniformly composed of the same mixture of
cruelty, lust and selfishness; and forever and forever, through all
the ages of the world, they use the greater part of their intellectual
abilities in devising new ways to condone and conceal their vices. You
call me ‘temptress’;--why? The temptation, if any there be, emanates
from yourself and your own unbridled desires; I do nothing. I am made
as I am made; if my face or my form seems fair in your eyes, this is
not my fault. Your glance lights on me, as the hawk’s lights on
coveted prey; but think you the prey loves the hawk in response? It is
the mistake all men make with all women,--to judge them always as
being of the same base material as themselves. Some women there are
who shame their womanhood; but the majority, as a rule, preserve their
self-respect till taught by men to lose it.”
Gervase sprang up and faced her, his eyes flashing dangerously.
“Do not make any pretence with me!” he said half angrily. “Never tell
me you cannot love! …”
“I _have_ loved!” she interrupted him. “As true women love,--once, and
only once. It suffices; not for one lifetime, but many. I loved; and
gave myself ungrudgingly and trustingly to the man my soul worshipped.
I was betrayed, of course!--it is the usual story--quite old, quite
commonplace! I can tell it to you without so much as a blush of pain!
Since then I have not loved,--I have _hated_; and I live but for one
thing--Revenge.”
Her face paled as she spoke, and a something vague, dark, spectral and
terrible seemed to enfold her like a cloud where she stood. Anon she
smiled sweetly, and with a bewitching provocativeness.
“Your ‘passion,’ you see, my friend, awakens rather a singular
‘reflex’ in me!--not quite of the nature you imagined!”
He remained for a moment inert; then, with an almost savage boldness,
threw his arm about her.
“Have everything your own way, Ziska!” he said in quick, fierce
accents. “I will accept all your fancies, and humor all your caprices.
I will grant that you do not love me--I will even suppose that I am
repellent to you,--but that shall make no difference to my desire! You
shall be mine!--willing or unwilling! If every kiss I take from your
lips be torn from you with reluctance, yet those kisses I will
have!--you shall not escape me! You--you, out of all women in the
world, I choose …”
“As your wife?” said Ziska slowly, her dark eyes gleaming with a
strange light as she dexterously withdrew herself from his embrace.
He uttered an impatient exclamation.
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