She turned her face, now spectral and pallid as a waning moon, up to
him; her form grew thin and skeleton-like, while still retaining the
transparent outline of its beauty; and he realized at last that no
creature of flesh and blood was this that clung to him, but some
mysterious bodiless horror of the Supernatural, unguessed at by the
outer world of men! The dews of death stood thick on his forehead;
there was a straining agony at his heart, and his breath came in quick
convulsive gasps; but worse than his physical torture was the
overwhelming and convincing truth of the actual existence of the
Spiritual Universe, now so suddenly and awfully revealed. What he had
all his life denied was now declared a certainty; where he had been
deaf and blind, he now heard and saw. Ziska! Ziska-Charmazel! In very
truth he knew he remembered her; in very truth he knew he had loved
her; in very truth he knew he had murdered her! But another still
stranger truth was forcing itself upon him now; and this was, that the
old love of the old old days was arising within him in all its
strength once more, and that he loved her still! Unreal and terrible
as it seemed, it was nevertheless a fact, that as he gazed upon her
tortured face, her beautiful anguished eyes, her phantom form, he felt
that he would give his own soul to rescue hers and lift her from the
coils of vengeance into love again! Her words awoke vibrating
pulsations of thought, long dormant in the innermost recesses of his
spirit, which, like so many dagger-thrusts, stabbed him with a myriad
recollections; and as a disguising cloak may fall from the figure of a
friend in a masquerade, so his present-seeming personality dropped
from him and no longer had any substance. He recognized himself as
Araxes--always the same Soul passing through a myriad changes,--and
all the links of his past and present were suddenly welded together in
one unbroken chain, stretching over thousands of years, every link of
which he was able to count, mark, and recognize. By the dreadful light
of that dumb comprehension which flashes on all parting souls at the
moment of dissolution, he perceived at last that not the Body but the
Spirit is the central secret of life,--not deeds, but thoughts evolve
creation. Death? That was a name merely; there was no death,--only a
change into some other form of existence. What change--what form would
be his now? This thought startled him--roused him,--and once again the
low spirit-voice of his long-ago betrayed and murdered love thrilled
in his ears:
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