This Journal was entirely my own affair, and was compiled without
pre-consulting any of my fellow-members, and without afterwards
submitting it to them. At the same time, the object of it was
understood to be a record, from day to day, of the proceedings
of _all_ the Members, so far as these were of a professional or
semi-professional character, and came within my knowledge; it was not
in any sense a diary personal to myself (save in so far as I was one
P.R.B. among seven), nor deriving from my own thoughts or feelings.
The Journal was producible to any Member who might choose to ask
for it--I don’t think any one ever did. I used to make it a rule to
myself to mention only the Members of the Brotherhood, along with
some few other persons who came into close relation with them, their
purposes, and their work.
The compilation, as will be seen, extends from 15th May 1849, soon
after the Exhibitions had opened containing the works of the first
year of Præraphaelitism, to 29th May 1853; by which date, mainly
owing to Millais’s picture of _A Huguenot on St. Bartholomew’s Eve_,
the Præraphaelites had practically triumphed--issuing from the dust
and smother of four years’ groping surprise on the part of critics
and public, taking the form mostly of thick-and-thin vituperation.
There are various gaps in the Journal, owing to my own laches; and
several more, owing to a performance by my Brother, justifying the
designation once (I think) applied to him by a cabman, “a harbitrary
cove.” After the Journal had been finally (though not of any set
purpose) discontinued, it lay by me unnoticed for a number of years.
When at last I had occasion to re-inspect it, I found that several
pages had been torn out by my Brother, and several others mutilated.
I never knew accurately--never at all enquired--why he did this. I
suppose that at some time or other he took up the MS. in a more or
less haphazard way, and noticed in it some things which he did not
care to have on record regarding himself, and also in all likelihood
regarding Miss Elizabeth Siddal, to whom he was then engaged. Not
that I recorded anything whatever in a spirit of detraction or
ill-nature concerning either of them--far from that.
Thus the P.R.B. Journal is now much more fragmentary than it need
have been--for the portion destroyed by my Brother amounted, I dare
say, to a fair fifth of the whole. In what remains a good deal is
mere plodding journey-work, of no interest to myself, still less to
others. The extracts here presented may constitute something like a
half of the extant MS.--less rather than more.