Robert Orange: Being a Continuation of the History of Robert Orange
Thomas Hobbes · en
The messages which you have sent by Lady Fitz Rewes have helped me
where I most needed assistance. When I tell you this, it would be
more possible for you to imagine my gratitude than for me to
express it--at least, in words, and for that matter I can't see how
any act of mine could prove even a fraction of it. Shall I resume
my work on the 28th? I have had to learn that one does not always
choose one's vocation. It is sometimes chosen for us. May I beg
you, as one more favour, never to talk to me about the events of
the last fortnight? In one sense I am able--too able--to discuss
them. This is why I must not indulge myself. In times to come I may
find it, perhaps, a certain effort to speak of it all. Then I will
tell you gladly anything your kindness may seek to know. But just
now it is my duty to keep silent. One cannot fight the wild beasts,
and describe them fairly, at the same hour. Either they seem more
formidable than they are, or they are even more terrible than they
seem. But the order has gone forth--"Face them."
Your affectionate and grateful,
ROBERT de H. ORANGE.
Robert himself, after he had written this final letter, decided to reply
in person to a note which he had received that morning from Lady Sara.
He walked to St. James's Square wondering, without much interest,
whether Fate would have her absent or at home. As a matter of fact, she
had felt a presentiment of his call, and he found her, beautifully
dressed in violet tints, copying some Mass music in the drawing-room.
"I hoped you would come," she said, when the servant had closed the
door. "Nothing else could have shown me that you didn't mind my writing.
I had to write. I wrote badly, but indeed I understood. It takes an
eternity to sound the infinite. We won't talk of you: we can talk about
other people. Ask me what I have been doing."
All this time she held his hand, but in such sisterly, kind fashion,
that he felt more at ease with her than it was ever possible to be with
Pensée, who was timid, and therefore disturbing.
"Have you accepted Marshire?" he asked at once.
"No," she said, blushing; "I do not love him sufficiently to marry him."
"How is this?"