Again, since the death of her child a terrible sense of utter
loneliness had fallen upon her, and now that she saw her mistaken
judgment of Guy's character all her being yearned for his love, and
this woman, who had only respected and admired him when he was well
and strong, now that he was prostrate and weak, passionately loved him
with all the intensity of her nature. The coldness of her nature had
departed, the frozen heart had melted, and often, overcome with terror
and dread, she flung herself on her knees beside the bed, praying to
God to spare her the husband she had never understood nor loved till
now. She never spoke to Eustace about Mrs. Veilsturm--all she knew or
cared to know was that this obstacle that had stood between herself
and her husband had been removed, and that the true feelings of that
husband had been revealed to her by the hand of God.
During all this time Eustace acted the part of a brother, and never by
word or deed betrayed the true state of his feelings. Heaven alone
knew how he suffered in maintaining a cold, patient demeanour towards
the woman he loved, and his life, from the time of her arrival till
the hour he left San Remo, was one long martyrdom. Often she wondered
at his stoical calmness and apparent forgetfulness of the words he had
spoken to her at Errington Hall, but neither of them made any
reference to the past, and she thought that he was now cured of his
passion. Cured! Eustace laughed aloud to himself as he divined her
thoughts and contentment that it should be so, and he counted the
hours feverishly until such time as he could leave her with a
convalescent husband and depart from her presence, where he had to
hide his real feelings under a mask of cynical indifference.
Owing to the unintermitting care of Dr. Storge, the careful nursing of
his wife, and the watchful tenderness of Gartney, the man who had been
sick unto death slowly recovered. The long nights of agony and
delirium were succeeded by hours of peaceful slumber, the disordered
brain righted itself slowly, and the vacant stare of the eyes and
babble of the tongue were succeeded by the light of sanity and the
words of sense. He was weak, it is true--very weak--but the first
moment of joy she had known since the death of her child came to
Alizon when one morning, while kneeling beside his bed, he called her
faintly by her name.
"Alizon."
"Yes, dear!--your wife."
His wife!--was this his cold, stately wife who knelt so fondly beside
him? Were those eyes--shining with love, wet with tears--the cold blue
eyes that had so often frozen all demonstrations of affection? Was
that face, full of joyful relief and emotion, the marble countenance
that had never smiled lovingly on him since he had first beheld it?
No!--it could not be Alizon--it was some deceptive vision of the
brain, painting what might have been and yet---- She saw his state of
bewilderment, and, bending over, kissed him tenderly.